OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Wednesday, December 10, 2003, 4:59 AM
softly.
silently.
my tears left me.
leaving me in da dark.
i was breaking apart u see
u can neva imagine
how much tt hurt.
so sad but true.
in my hart
derz only u
mess trouble destruction
wateva tt happened
doesnt make sense
doubt and blame
arent u the one
my angel sends.?
u can neva imagine how terrible i feel. i feel at a lost. im lost. im lost without him.
all comfort fallz to nothing.
only him.
u do know dun u.
only him.
tears on my face
a smile on urz
ive been crying since da day.
Tuesday, December 09, 2003, 3:56 AM
letz face reality
im used to see u walk away frm me
again and again
im addicted to that sight
ur back
disappearing further n further
away frm sight.
bwahahaha another stupid post filled wif ramblingz n totteringz.
Sunday, December 07, 2003, 1:18 AM
i haf a huge headache now n it muz b da coz of straing at da computer 4 few hourz
-yawnz-
ohhhhh... i 4got wat i came 2 do.
dis is a crappy blog so i dun think im gonna let other ppl know of it =]
coz dis is mine. my world my world my world
so get outta it
perhapzzzzzzz
im realli crazy?
crazzi over
his every smile
his every grin
every moment i got to be with him
LOLZ tt juz popped out! honestly im going nutterz~
-yawnz-
i wanna be lyk emily.
i wanna be cold unfeeling [errrz except 2wardz catz]
yaynezz.
i dun wann feel ANYTHNG 4 him. NOOTHING
not even da simple frenship.
i dun wann know him.
-yawnz-
im tired
perhapz tt'z where all da crap is coming frm.
Saturday, December 06, 2003, 2:43 AM
A smile too weak
A memory too strong
Another day to live
You carry on
Burdens too heavy
Wounds so deep
The smiles that we wore
Are memories i keep
Never had this feeling
So strong
Of pain and loss
It all felt so wrong
Walking away
From darkness and fear
The source of all hurt
But yet, another tear
The pain i felt
Was more than i could take
I never wanted to leave
It was for my love's sake
But blessed it be
Love takes nothing
However
Leaves many things
Flowers wither
All that cud be taken
Faith shatter
My memories cant be stolen
If only i would bear
If only i could
Stand the loss
I would.
A smile too weak
A memory too strong
Another day to live
You carry on
, 2:20 AM
im totally not a poet. puh-leaze. wateva i come out wif r juz words.... tt try to express how i feel. it makes me feel a teeny weeny bit better after expressing how i feel. at least its better. at least i feel betta
thngs can neva get betta.
, 2:12 AM
i took it all on my own
no one ever knows anythng
i din care
u took everythng away frm me
my hope my trust my love
i din care
u din care bout my existence
another belonged to u
i din care
words falther
hearts broken
i didnt care
tears shed
depression took over
i didnt care
da nxt day shud be better
everyone says that
i didnt care
smses sent
never to be returned
i didnt care
spirits restored
just to get emptied away again
i didnt care
drifted around
to get just the slightest attention
u didnt care
mustered up courage
just for a feeble hi
u didnt care
struggling with innermost emotions
to decide whether u were worth it
u didnt care
crazy over ur smile
ur laughter
u didnt care
went to the placez
where i've seen u there b4
u didnt care
cared
shared
u didnt care
craved. just to hear ur voice
just, dun say bye.
u didnt care
time trickles by
my tears trickles dry
u didnt care.
laughter ceased
masked sorrow
u didnt care
doubts hidden
words mistaken
u didnt care
i asked myself
wat if one day u cease to be
i care. i care i care.
u wun knoe how much i do.
perhaps. perhaps. u didnt know?
i care after all.
if i didnt.
i wud haf just thrown everythng..............
to....... myself? again.
i wud always care.
i just didnt know how to let u know.
will u care after u know?
will u?
im too afraid to try.
im sorry. im too dumb. im too stupid.
i always try NOT to care for u. but i always do. and i still do now, and foreva. dun u know?