OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Tuesday, February 28, 2006, 9:21 PM
kays school was..horrid tday
i think ive just about,lost all interest
in learning.(which is a BOOBOO.no good)
anyways went to watch ahsoftball play agnst
damai in turfcity just now &NUUUUUPES you
didnt hear wrong!turrrf city.well the only
+ about the place is tht i hvnt actually been thr
bfor.............then agn it doesnt seem like such a + now.
twas scorching &i was feeling out of sorts
aftr the taxi ride.
we must be raving lunatics.NVRRRMIND tht
at least we managed
to watch e match!how can we not be present,founders
of the WELOVEAHSOFTBALL CLUB.weell so maybe
we were a taaaaaadbit late.
if youre gna ask me why my girlfs &i went to watch
twas simply bcus:
WE FELT LIKE IT.
im uhhm blogging it
just in case you piss me off by asking me in the face
in THAAT tone like it's STHHH WRONG.sheesh you.
hah!anywayyyyys who cares if they had won or lost
,twas a good match.second!;]
daarn
bball matches are starting to bore me
THIS IS INSANITY.in capitals ahahah watching bball
used to be so fascinating but now i get distracted by the slightest
thing when i sit in the stadium &try to update myself with
whts happening.
to find myself being lulled to sleep by
the applauding going on around me.
evrything goes on too quickly im too lag to watch properly
.makes face-
rahhrrahr but im still going for
the dtknw is monday or thurday
match forgot which day.
finals right BUT SOMEONE LOST MY CHEM TEST
still dare to ask me to root for ahteam summor
ayyes my support comes frm the heart
shd be enough right no need to go one lurrh L.O.L.S
AYE HEIGE.AYE HEIGE GOGOGO!
Monday, February 27, 2006, 11:43 PM
the day has been...
uhhm.different.
expo -
fine,so i was one of the two boliao ppl huuh
calsy.sheeeesh e day has been quite exhausting
probably was the geog test:one hell of a energy sapper.
mdm sim said twas mainly based on the marianne chong
book SHOOT.guess who doesnt hve it.!
plus miss chan will SO TEAR ME TO PIECES TMMRS
cussss i lost my chemtest!rather,the kind dear occupying
the seat beside me KINDA!MISPLACED!IT!
note the resentful tone
but helluuuu!mschan is pretty terrifying for a chem tchr.
i so anticipate tht look.
the........
HAH-i-knew-someone-like-you-would-not-be-responsible-enough
-to-keep-whts-impt-properly
...............look.
THAAT look coupled with bared fangs.
gark.you get the gist.
.
Sunday, February 26, 2006, 1:33 AM
normal post alert(i trrry}
UHHM tday.....quite the awful day.but
twas fun at sh's hse though thanks
for the invites dood
eyys soccer cheers me up!the
feeling you get when the ball makes contact with
your foot is.nice;]
(slows down)
went ovr to cityhall area,walked arnd
a lot AND OHH my day started at eight in
the morning thts PSYCHOOOH.
bcus eight just.doesn't.cut it
this..is not working.normal post my ass....
i basically
spent my day......staring into space(quotes
calsie &yz).&they spent theirs
hollering at me,getting my attention then losing it
agn aahaahh as if! although i couldnt really bring myself to
enjoy myself at some parts
of the day(it got better at night) hope
twasnt a downer for my girlfs.esp calanthea
i can't go thru whtevr happened tday according
to time lols fricking random,no sequence at all/
my timeline's a zigzag
let you go
Saturday, February 25, 2006, 12:56 PM
you forgot about breakfast(i am a fool.intolerable})
your stomach isn't your stomach,it is your
heart.
your heart is empty.
, 12:42 PM
it is a slap in the face.stray tendrils.
cruel reality calls.
ringring.
rings.
the invisible threads that kept you here
have tangled.whatever's in me lurches
and threatens to spill through punctured
souls when i think..all the time
this is the girl - no i won't write about myself
today,the way i inflict
this inevitable hurt,twirling the ring round
my finger when Sleep fails to beckon
in my dreams i am complete,complete with
jagged bullet holes taking the shape of missing jigsaw
pieces.
persuading lips to curve into a smiling rainbow
so hear hear my stories again,i won't write
about myself today
these pretty things are not mine,youre
not mine to hurt.who the hell did i think i was..
if this is what i feel,why
do i end up destroying the people i love.
i am mine and yours,too(?)
it never felt like this before
stricken with panic of catastrophic proportions
i dtunderstand why
your everythng is now........yours to hve
only aftr so much crap had happened.
(didnt you make me promise to say so when it is..so?)
didnt i promise to say yes,or no
when it really has ended on
your part?this is not for any reaction frm you
ive gone too far.way too far
maybe your woundsll never heal but ive always
believed ya
.contrary to wht ive said,i
DO want to.
maybe thts not enough.
too preoccupied with lengthy conversations,
you forgot about breakfast
your stomach isn't your stomach,it is your
heart.
your heart is empty.
, 9:06 AM
normal post alert(i trrry}
UHHM tday.....quite the awful day.but
twas fun at sh's hse though thanks
for the invites dood
eyys soccer cheers me up!the
feeling you get when the ball makes contact with
your foot is.nice;]
(slows down)
went ovr to cityhall area,walked arnd
a lot AND OHH my day started at eight in
the morning thts PSYCHOOOH.
bcus eight just.doesn't.cut it
this..is not working.normal post my ass....
i basically
spent my day......staring into space(quotes
calsie &yz).&they spent theirs
hollering at me,getting my attention then losing it
agn aahaahh as if! although i couldnt really bring myself to at some parts
of the day(it got better at night) hope
twasnt a downer for my girlfs.esp calanthea
i can't go thru whtevr happened tday according
to time lols fricking random,no sequence at all/
my timeline's a zigzag
let you go
Friday, February 24, 2006, 9:42 PM
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH
(i thank the heavens above for allowing me to
be able to feel amused by how i overreact -
&how i am reduced to a wreck by others'
words.record time - it took like,two seconds.
people can seriously screw my day but at
least
im not feeling suicidal NOW
IT IS SO.stupid how easily
i get affected.
.eeeeeep.
, 8:56 PM
you think you know me.
i've been surviving on a lifetime supply
of frozen brains,(yes,now you know wht the grey matter
ive been enjoying evry recess is)
slurpslurrrp,
your blood is blood but
slush flows in my veins.my arteries are green,verging
on neon.
did you knw all tht?
i hve a supernatural power,&tht is to
not judge people whom i knw nuts about.
&it is true regret i feel
tht you
weren't privileged enough to possess such an ability.
yahyahhYAAH i am attached.
it has been thirty eight
years AND YOU DIDNT KNW
.i am MARRIED.i was
a grandmother of 74grandchildren at the tender age of twelve.
and how i wish i can see your delighted smiles
now.yearning to tell your best friend about
yiting &how much you dislike the way i lead people on.
finally one assumption you made(out of 2917575017876 assumptions)
IS RIGHT!so very accurate too.good for you -
go tell your auntiesunclescousins about
the big baad yiting.riiight now.(or hve you already)
i am so frustrated and i give up.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006, 8:04 PM
bound by chains
in air - frenzied struggles
she used to be able to jump off swings,singing
strangling melodies,wringing wrists
click to view it BIG.(maybe not thaat big)
(:GWUNS ilime!to bits
spontaneous shot..lols she wasn't posing
it..turned out looking pretty sad huuh..
taken long ago when we girls were just
sitting arnd in sunplaza park
..twas gwun'sbday'05 i think
taken a liking to it only recently.
tech details cus ya just so nosy!:no editing 'cept for BandW and slight contrasting
no cropping<33
i really hope ya people will like this.
i am mine.
, 7:07 PM
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
Don't worry, stay calm, I'm coming to save you!
- { YOU NEED TO SAVE ME.(i can't save you) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
-feigns fainting spell like how all damsels in distress do
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
I'M COMING PRINCESS CHO! HANG ON!!!
- { YOU NEED TO SAVE ME.(i can't save you) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
ahahahahahah
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
hahax
- { YOU NEED TO SAVE ME.(i can't save you) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
ohh give it up i might be on the roads,innards splattered all over the grnd
- { YOU NEED TO SAVE ME.(i can't save you) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
aft being rolled ovr by the tenth car yet
- { YOU NEED TO SAVE ME.(i can't save you) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
AND nobody blinks
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
don worry
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
I have this TimeMachineEX
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
hmm
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
but i have to find the instruction manual first
(@_@) 늘…사랑해요…[摄影+吉他+化学+天文学+飞卡楼] says:
i wonder where i left it
- { YOU NEED TO SAVE ME.(i can't save you) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
..........11th car.12th.SQQQQUISH.
(highly amusing LOLOLSS)
but pleasepleaseplease
no more than two cars
if that happens
someone pick me up
&it's okay
if you leave me by the walkway
or even in the grass strewn with..grass.
you are hers he is yours but i am mine -
HUH.
dtknw wht im talkin about
.roarr
must be THE pre-mathtest-syndrome
commonly found in students of today
MAYB TIS JUST ME.
binomialmatricesp&c LOLS wht am i doing
blogging bout my secret fear of numbers
which isn't that much of a secret anymore
'SSTEAD of tryin to do some last minute cramming
whywhywhywhywhy yiting are you like this
bytheways zhilin told me tht we secfours might not
be able to 've our concert cus secfours're supp
to step down in april.so they say.
ohh how hilarious,really
i will toilet paper her office
I WILL I WILL I WILL
WHOEVR WHOS GNA
STOP US shall feel our wrath.
almightydance!(...........................uhhhh)
bytheways softball did really well ystrdy
finals finals here they come eyysss so exciting
hah thr was like cheering from the bleachers.
usually we
just.................stare..&..............stare.
and.
s t a r e.
(anywaysanyways HAPPYBIRTHDAY SONGHON)
(.......if you rnt suffering the repercussions of
eating the spag already)
HAH...joke.....................OF CUSSSSS.
we all knw gwun's THE culinary cook!;]
of fivestarhotel standard,yes!
HATEMATH.i solemnly swear
to be mugging at 7.30 sharpish.
Sunday, February 19, 2006, 4:09 PM
maybe tomorrow,is the day
maybe yesterday
my super power is.loving everybody
through the hate i have for myself
(see -
brutally straight
to point.)
beating round the bush?
no dead bushes.
he meant to
suicide,but then the phone rang
&your voice tightened the tap.
we awake to a life of eternal dreaming
lols i woke up thinking bout wht gwuns once mentioned
yknw when we go to sleep
the point we knw tht we've woken up..is WHEN we wake up,
no?
then
we'll never knw that we've been sleeping until
we wake up.actually -
it is very much like death
minus the waking up part.AND not knowing.
..losing consciousness slowly,i'm losing
my fear for death(or maybe this is only temporary)
zekeybaby went to fetch a chair from the living
room,set it on the ground near me
so that he can stand onto it & hug me properly
LOLOLOLOLOLS
im still laughing ohsweetsweet dear
(though a little short) hahah he knows im in need of a hug?
ezekiel:jiejie LOVE YOU (making fervent attempts to kiss my photograph
which is tacked onto zhilin's vday board)
me: love ME?
ezekiek:NO!..you.
me:.....me?
ezekiel:NOO..YOU!love you!
he says it in tht,how-can-you-be-so-stupid-can't-you-get-what-im-saying
TONE. hahahaahahahahh to him,i'm 'you'
but OOHGEE.dearest,you'll soon learn that i'm 'me' to me.
mindyourenglish!
how.c.u.t.e
Saturday, February 18, 2006, 1:42 AM
therapeutic - shouting at someone
you were really feeling bothered about whilst
gently coaxing your baby cousin to
recite after you,'jiejie'........... my girlfriend!'
mute the
murmurs,shush the crooning
tis the same silence which runs through
your left atrium doesn't love me
=[
glaciers form red gashes against
the vastness of skin.pressed against broken
glass.
shards to draw blood
.from .your hands,me &your glass together
i've been hiding and there never was a game
you can't win when you can't find me
now..if only i had some recollection.
i can't win too,where's me?
1,2,3,4,5,6........ready or not}
you can't bear to hum to my poems
Friday, February 17, 2006, 9:42 PM
it bothers it bothers it bothers me how
i am so out of reach.
nthg lyrical.nthg poetic ohh isnt yz glad,hah!
just a fact
thts real and so tangible.
sitting in the playground
watching girls feel the sand between their fingers
is therapeutic.(proven)
i wished one of them had stabbed me
with some twig found on the ground.
hearts &all(blood and gore)
,Y-I-T-I-N-G
Monday, February 13, 2006, 8:03 PM
DANCEWORKS WAS FAB.
hah!we lost,i dtthink we were
even close to gettin into the finals
6grps out of 56grps
plus ours was hiphop/funk,
big on funk.so tht sets us apart,which UHHM i cant
decide whether it's a gd/bad thing.
we were.....odd.
the....uhhm shar
told serene tht his 'FRIEND',one of the judges
commented tht the music was unique
but our energy level was low.(notice how he compliments
on only the music,which is chosen by shar)
WHAT A COINCIDENCE.
so.LOLS in other words,shar is implyin
tht our loss has nthg to do with him
wht a *^^$(*!#*^%^)%! but tht's expected anyways
:D we really had low energy level in comparison to most dancers out thr
but i enjoyed THE WHOLE THING.the nerves-
screwin up the sports sections-
strutting like a hiaozharbo with a bat swung over my shoulder-
dancing all the strength out of me-
a few ahdancers started hvg the jitters
including me.
but some commented on how they hated our dance etcetc
,esp when so many other grps
had the WOWWW.HIPHOP kinda dances
seeing em is ALREADY a constant reminder of how we rnt up to standard,&this
worsens it.
alright it sorta peeved me,since hating it isnt gna make us better
,so whts hating it for?
but they didnt allow it to stop em frm perform their best!<3
my girls are good like tht.
i love yall we've just gta strikestrikestrikestrike
for the concert &try make it happen,yes?
lolss actually
our dance IS hateful,(how good can a dance
get when the choreographer himself is SO HATEFUL)
but then tht doesnt stop me frm enjoyin dancing our
dance,plus,how can i still not enjoy it when it is
our fricking turn in like,five minutes?
hahah im so happy about our loss
im not ashamed and no one shd be ashamed,
BCUS WE GAVE IT OUR ALL,GIRLS.
twas shit choreography &we all knw it,so dont
harp on it when we can just get down to actual dancing
im so proudda you girls.
the end of dancerworks was.HAAWT
mmhms so much better than the one two years ago,
held in westmall.
ayyes so tired afterwards
tday i missed skl,&i slept for like 12hours(night) and other
4hours in the aftnn.
nvr knew how awesome it feels to be sapped of energy
get down it do,yo.
Friday, February 10, 2006, 11:21 PM
the sky is in you,
&in you,the red sky
with palms flat on the ground
feel the birds soaring through your kidneys
they were overgrown feathers,
pecking away at our insecurities.
feel the birds searing your kidneys;
uhhm 're there not supposed to be
any more hse visiting?cny this yr sure seemed
..short.
HVE I MENTIONED HOW I WISH
EVRY 16/17YEAROL' IS HAPPY WITH THEIR RESULTS?
now ive.
the big O's are still pretty far off
frm now but BUT dance works WAS
like mths later but now,tis just merely
two days bfor we bust our asses on stage.
{stay away from drugs,you guys{
=[ whoooooooooo it's.exhilarating
I KNW WE WONT GET THRU TO THE NXT ROUND.
six grps out of fiftysix grps?nahh.
we just..rn't tht good.nowhere near gettin past the judges even,maybe.
but im still looking forward to it.STRANGELY.
furthermore,try counting mentally
the number of nice dances we can get to watch
youve got a positive thinking girly in the hse tonight,yo.
anyways if youve got free time on your hands
-sunday feb12th
,COME OVER TO
NGEEANNCITYCIVICPLAZA,
there are gna be really good skls &you can just.watch
'em work it
i hope it's gna be MINDBLOWING.
hah but kindly do not despise ahdance aft viewing
the uhhm quality dances of others'
especially when we're in such dire need of an ego boost
bites lip-
;&how their wings lift your frowns
as i whisper to the falling stars:your name,your
name.......your name.your touch.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006, 11:27 PM
his heart is carelessly stitched onto his face
a mass of bloody popped seams& rippling muscle;
its rhymthic pulsating marring his, otherwise,
exquisite features
tic tic tic tic clockwork mechanisms of the -
like that of my -
{..random much.
formed words when i hopped off bus293
.grisly eyys........
as still as dead tissue can be.
(youre gone,gone like gusts of wind which
come in incomplete threes
, 10:52 PM
sum1tht'spassingby: anyways, if you really detest going tothe west area to do shopping,
then don't go to the west area if you think daiso is really cheapo in imm.
sum1tht'spassingby: *stop being so childish and put a stop for vulgar words...have you ever thought of writing short forms and vulgar words are so....very childish?
to tell you the truth....it is really childish.
it may be childish.but at least i watch the grammar i use.
'stop bein so childish &put a stop TO vulgar words.'
you don't put a stop 'for' something.
see.short forms here &thr.but at least it's accurate english i use.
'hve you evr thought THAAAAT writing short forms.........'
yah.again.proven.
no offense.
by the way.
if youve bothered to read wht i said in detail,
you'd have known that i wasn't saying that
daiso is friggin cheapo.
daiso is weell daiso.'daiso supermarket',the name
which i thought had a certain ring to it,a MADEUP name.
{daiso supermarket.HAH fricking cheapo.}
the last time i checked,daiso wasn't daiso SUPERMARKET.
a figment of my own imagination.thwarted humour.
get real dood.this is my blog,i am allowed to
be myself without being judged by PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW ME.
&dt give a heck about me.
regardin vulgarities,read the above.
if youre gna judge a person after reading a few cursewords,so be it.
shortforms:why i shd type rigidly when
i can be understood easily like this?
but hell,I made this blog public,so i can't
go on and on and on about privacy,can i.
i can't find fault
with my posts,really.
wUuD eu ratheR ii typE liDatx.
different ppl've got different preferences,i guess,that i understand.
but my friends,some of those who constantly read my posts,
they dt'mind me typing the way
i do now.
so let me attempt to put this across this nicely,yes?
i don't see myself changing for..uhhm someone who just happened
to drop by this website.not now,not in the near future
.well not FOR you,at least
my 'childishness' is an eyesore for
you,(that is quite apparent)i'd suggest you leave &never come back.
(howevr, i accept your honest opinion tht im a vulgar &childish girl.
that,undeniably,is accurate.
but i can't share the same sentiments tht those
traits of me are reflected in my posts
.youve got sth against me,hvnt you,
or else you'd be on a long-term tagging spree.
singapore has its fair share of pPlx hu tyPe liDatx.
i dt'see how i am similar to them.
point made.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006, 11:54 PM
and to think i thought it was spelled
the cool arty tarttty way the shop itself shd look - 'dysol'.
friggin cool,yes.
well surprisesurprise it was......'daiso'.which
goes with 'supermarket' extremely well,if you
realized.
daiso supermarket.HAH fricking cheapo.
thr was this image of the shop in my head
dingy little shop.small.cosy &cluttered with beautiful stuff
everywhr.tastefully designed.
&WELLS i cudnt tell if twas like how i imagined
bcus.....................the shop was CLOSED dammit
doublewhammy.
it.was.CLOSED.of all days,stock taking
on seventhJAN2oo5.
of all days,we went TDAY.
hatehate.IMM is so fwdklfnweknging inaccessible &
i feel weird shopping in the west side of singapore.
HATE.
(wasnt feeling all tht well so went to sickbay
bfor the last lesson started.strange eyys,no stoning -
SWEETSWEET SLEEP.the hour passed like mere seconds.)
{congratulations softball
though i watched like only one-eighth of it
danceworks UGHH theyre forcing me to prioritise!
see the heart in her simply bcus...........she sees the heart
in you..bruised battered broken.in all its glory..
pick yourself up;youve gotta..though it's of immense difficulty
or please.at least
allow others to
&..dtstop believing
bcus in NO time soon would we stop believing in you
Monday, February 06, 2006, 8:49 PM
together,we'll sail out of this skin &bone
studying for tests,attending school...the world is robbing us of our minds
i woke up with your fingers tracing knotted hearts in my ponytail because
i believe strongly.that this is a big conspiracy involving
the implants of hearts cracked open,down the middle.
born to crave for the sweetness of failure,the need to
underperform.it has been 9months yet i still don't see me in your eyes
i believe
so strongly.so strongly that i am beginning to suspect that
i play a part in this.the transfusion
of tainted blood is done &i :am whole again,with crimson oil paints
flowing in my veined limbs
do you realize your importance?only with your manipulation am i granted life
i am merely the lifeless doll tangled in strings.
please do,tug at the ends of my lips &there,a smile.
LYRICS:do you realize
Do you realize
That you have the most beautiful face?
Do you realize
We're floating in space?
Do you realize
That happiness makes you cry?
Do you realize
That everyone you know someday will die?
And instead of saying all of your good-byes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
Do you realize?
Do you realize
That everyone you know someday will die?
And instead of saying all of your good-byes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
Do you realize
That you have the most beautiful face?
, 7:19 PM
i wanted to blog bad
wantEDD.
but i don't want to no more
it's not the dinner thats sittin on the table,
.nor ssit the hunger.
it is you
ohhrandom tagger.people've got problems with me.
anonymous taggers like you make my world a little
brighter with every tag you type,every step you make.
......i'd hate to disappoint but......i'm into depression,really.
,heavy,sombre skies so grey &pregnant with rain.
i like my clouds to be tinged with grey,all my stars dimmed.
therefore please do not think that
i give too much a fuck about you.
blame people like you for my inflated ego &lastly,before i attempt
to forget about your existence(selective amnesia is of some help at times like these)
,(i was the next posting person,
managed to tag back quick enough)
.i want to thank you for your kind reminder
tht i am a gayfuck,beats me how i nearly forgot.
BIGGRIN.