OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Monday, January 31, 2005, 9:39 PM
when your heart feels so tight in your chest
&you thought it wasnt there no more
iwaswrong the heart speaks
oh. im sure it did.
NO LISTEN! IT DID
yes, ok, it spoke to you. now,
breathe.
'I'm playing Hopscotch, join me, if i said please?'
I HEARD IT
breathe, girl, just breathe
it skipped a few beats and its voice faded to a whisper
i told you to BREATHE
I TOLD YOU TO BREATHE
I TOLD YOU
no.
Sunday, January 30, 2005, 4:57 PM
LOLS
I
SOUNDED
SO
INCREDIBLY
STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
OMGAWD.
=[ lmao. damn... this is an example of who i used to be.
everyone changes.
*shrugs
but for those who just knew me.. tht might be hard to accept
;lmaoo. im still sick, after talkin to zl on e phone
my voice reduced to a series of croaks
yikes.
poor zhilin.
HAHA.
here goes nothing...
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
n3w c|ħ§rôôM!!!
lolz... yupz!! 2dae all sec1z *moved* house.. 2 da new completed buildin! yesh... finally... it'z bigger then da past classroomz, n definitely brighter (a +!!) but... it juz seemz weird shiftin 2 a new environment suddenly (a -)... hehehhez... overall, itz ok :P
yea.. as usual, i've gone 2 skool, n gone thru da classez, n gone home larz..! wat else do u expect..? uh huh, n as u guyz may knoe, yz n i bought gwynny a hp cover rytz..? *turnz green at da thot of seein da cover* jk :P newaez, green as in envy, not sick larz!! hahahaaz... :P itz soOoOOoOOo kewl lookin!! (cant help praisin mi n yz'z gd taste 4 da ... ... 101th tym..? LOLZ...)
yea, n yz n i totalli drooled all over gwynny'z hp dis few daez.. heeheez... *ahemz* not literalli of coz!! gwyn will kill us lorrz.. lolz. u guyz shud haf seen how she screamed 2dae.. so piercin n sharp.. gwyn, no wonder u in choir larz..! lolz... :P she looked so mad 2dae!! lolz.. :P (granny gwynny... dun b angry 2 often arz.. lyk wat u've saed, will grow old easily de ohz.. :P)
uh huh uh huhz.. scannin thru da eventz datz happened 2dae.. nothin much actualli... ehz.. lemme think... nething much happened 2dae..? dun think so larz... heeheEz... beta sign off now... later u guyz think i sotz arz.. ask que n ans dem myself... LOLZ...
X0X0X0
[t|n9x2^x|ezh|]
Saturday, January 29, 2005, 6:05 PM
i didnt know tht this was sooo tedious...
i read my diary entries which i wrote during pri4 to sec2
and my prev blog.
lols i witnessed so many drastic changes.. hmms.
10 Years Ago, I...
1. was 4.
2. was at nursery right.. right?
3. just moved to tampines from bishan one year ago
4. remember this guy in my class who likes to cling onto this white pillar in my class... everyday, he will listen to the teachers FROM the pillar. i cant rmbr much, but i think he looked like a monkey. a pale monkey. ;D
5. was dressed up by my mom frequently and i went to skl durin special occasions in frilly party dresses. they used to irritate me a bit, being so scratchy to the skin
5 Years Ago, I...
1. was 9.
2. was best friends with jacqueline. we did almost everything together
3. hated jobina THEN and did many mean things.
4. was a horrible.. HORREHBOLL girl.
5. turned 10 on Dec28th.
4 Years Ago, I...
1. was 10.
2. was class monitress in 5.8!! I REMEMBER THROWIN TABLES AT GUYS IN MY CLASS when they made me mad.
3. was crazy over kmk.
4. gernaine said we were special friends then. and everything was just a fraud. =[ we both liked kmk, see. my mom threw away all her letters accidentally so i hv nothin to look back at. ;D
5. was best friends with min qi after planning for a skit together!!
3 Years Ago, I...
1. 11 when i was still crazy over kmk.
2. dreaded PSLEs and the end of my primary skl years.
3. GOT MY FIRST HANDPHONEE. twas a Samsung SGH 500. HAHAH.
4. graduated from gongshang and was greatly affected by it.
5. became 12 when it was 28thDec +i got a T-score of 253+2.
2 years ago, I...
1. was 12 when i got into AHS!! 1A03
2. made great friends with wei theng. he was my first best friend in ahs ;D
3. went for Jap at MOELC every Tues&Thurs. quit at the end of e yr cosh i cudnt handle =[
4. put CDS as my first choice, got in, but afta hving a change of mind, exchanged with jie ying so i was in Dance Society since then
5. was 13 when it was 28thDec. i knew qz durin the end of year thru msn.. and liked him till 2004March.
wHenz i was tWelve i sMsed lyK dizZz.
i typed lyk diz. lololololz.
i am THE expert at typing biGsMall letters in smses FASTTTT.
i found best friends in yongzhi, audrey, gwynneth and calanthea this year.
A Year Ago, I...
1. was 13. it's 2004.
2. and the others, weren't best friends with drey anymore. everything was a big mass of confusion, and i didnt know why.. sighhs.
3. met sw during May when cal asked wee ho &him along to study dates for the midyears & i................
4. dreaded the split of 2a04. although 2a was a class with not much unity in it, after being together for 2years i really really miss EVERYONE in it... until now. arghh i love all of em. ALL!! ;D
5. became 14 after Dec28th. held a partay at aunt's condo in hougang but gwyn &aur cudnt turn up. =[
6. did a countdown to the New Year with cal, shiwen, janice, wee ho at sw's hse.
it was a screwed up year.. but i built friendships with various ppl &im so glad for tht
So Far This Year, I...
1. am still 14.
2. cannot make a clean break away from the past. =[
3. got into 3B'05
4. celebrated cal's bdae on 27th Jan at sherwin's condo func. rm. twas funfunfun!
5. am trying to be more hardworkin and... sociable.
Yesterday, I....
1. was still 14.
2. missed you very much
2.5. attracted many stares from ahs students sittin at e bus-stop outside ahs. after Dance, i ate a bit of a leftover fry which was in e aluminium tray we cooked for cal's bdae THAT we left the leftovers THEREEEE.. IT WAS ON TOP OF A RUBBISH BIN!!! made zhilin take the process and pictures of me and the tray. ;D
3. had many doubts abt certain things &felt lyk cryin durin skl.
4. had no tuition BECAUSE MY UNCLE CANCELLED IT LAST MIN!! SOOO HAPPYY.
5. was a bit sick with sore throat
my birthday was just one month ago here. so many things have changed and remained the same.
Today, I ....
1. am still 14.
2. woke up with a monster's voice. 7/8 of my voice was gone. had flu and cough as well. went to the doc with mom &ezekiel
3. will be eating 7tablets of medicine 3times per day.
4. have decided to do THIS thingey which i snitched from yz's blog loooongtime ago.
5. am stressed bout CNY class deco design.
______i will love my friends more.
Tomorrow I will...
1. still be 14.
2. still be eating 7tablets of medicine 3times per day .
3. still be me.
4. still be loving you.
5. be one day older. be one step closer.
to the edge.
Friday, January 28, 2005, 10:41 PM
hellos.
im not gna abstain frm speakin foul language
when im feelin angry
in MYY blog
because this is where i go to when i wna speak to no one
even my mom knows i speak foul language at times
in my blog,
in short bursts of speech at times
et cetera
if i dont, i'll
TO COMBUST SPONTANEOUSLY
&all my innards will spill out in steady streams of red
this doesnt mean im turnin into this bad teen, rebellious ah-lian
dont worry.
rarrrwgh im like.... so..
hrrumphs.
just tht i feel maligned.
geeee-zus.
basketballers ARE BLURR
;D
it's one month afta my bdae.
=\ stop Time.
i cant go so fast.
Monday, January 24, 2005, 9:24 PM
hmms geog is damn hard can
6/7 of wot i studied didnt come up
figures
O__________________o
that rift valley question
the map
the turkey earthquake
WA LAOO FAIL LER LAAAAA.
i think i'av a damn big mouth
all u hafta do is ask
and i'll just tell you
everyyytheeeeng
haish beeegmouth
hmms.
cal's bdae is on thurs.
she wants an mp3, but
howww.
not enough ppl to share
blahh.
whatevur, we'll see
;D
dun feel lyk buyin mp3, so ma fan must gather everyone for monehh but that's what she really wants &tis like so bad to buy her sumthng she doesnt reaaaaly reaaally want
im lookin forward to her bdae WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
we r celebrating it at sherwin's condo's func room which is directly behind ahs
xD hope tht it'll be funfunfunnn
*crosses fingers
im acty gna watch a bball match tomorrs.
ahs against idknowwho.
HAHAH so crazy ryts.
got bio on weds summore
*tsktskkerererrrr
WHATEVURRR [jun yuan frm mar class hates this word which makes it even nicer to say in front of him]
whatever.
mard-evurr.
hmms ok i was like sooooo poor thing today
walk down e hill on my own lols yz had stuffies on
cal gwyn yak nehh had choir
sherwin's sick GET WELL SOOOOON
i sound hyper yikes nooo way that's not how it shud be
::nono::
then i saw justin, he was walkin whaaay slow, behind
haha then i actually smsed him afta i got onto e mrt
asked him if he was sick.. he looked darn sick durin test
......................................then get daooed.
no reply.
*SHRUGS
no worries,
the mere existance of sugarehh babes in this wurl is enough to make me die alrr
i dont need anymore of that
lovehh dovehh
shite.
Saturday, January 22, 2005, 4:43 PM
i actually missed out on a movie trip today
__sobs.
just for a geography test.
ooh i want to smack pat wong sooo much.
well. cheers. i'd better pass this test or else i'll DIEEE
*pulls off an anguished expression
i'av just interfered in a tagboard quarrel.
*shrugs.
maybe in no time, spammers will flock to my blog as well
but i cant help but be a big mouth in zl's blog
hello. one spammer is threatenin her safety in skl
what nxt? bloodshed?
no wonder the need for insurance in ahs
geesh they must hv been notified of the deranged ppl around
i'd like to see what they can do tho.
darn im heckin it.
Friday, January 21, 2005, 3:04 PM
goo
my cous is down with fever+cough
hope she gets better asap~
geog test
damn im so flunkin it
hmmms may the force stop me frm comin online tomors &sundayy
;\
geog needs all the concentration it can get frm me
plus bio on weds
emaths on thurs
lets play badminton on thurs.
let's not.
but actually i think im better off likin tennis playas than bball playas
im such a freak. like i hv a choice.
yes lets play badminton on thurs &i might like him all over again afta seeing him
;D
better HIM than him
it's infatuation it's only infatuation
gettin so muddled up with infatuations,
worthless thing
DAMN DAMN DAMN
you do realize that no one will understand what im saying except myself
dont ask
i'll tell no one
sayin it out loud myt make it come true so i wont
i wont i wont i wonttt
im such a piece of rubbish >.<~
currently i wish to think bout nothing.
so what happens when there's so much to think about?
Thursday, January 20, 2005, 9:44 PM
if i HAVE to feel like this
i'd peel my skin off layer by layer
lmao there's no possibility... right
omgawd looks like im in for another round of torture
;O can i give up alr.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005, 9:09 PM
the prev entry was a bitch
hahahaa
but wudnt mind if you guys want me to update that way. ;P
hmmms... i'av got a geog test comin right up
&im clueless about it
yini asked me to start studying today...
we'll see ;D
HAAARH AND NOT AN INCH OF ME IS GUILTY OF BLAMING THAAAAT.... PAT WONG
geesh that lady's one HORRIBLE teacher
even that's an understatement
::shakes head
im so annoyed at her
ahhaha i'll ask patrick my darling starfish to get rid of her
fancy having her as a wife
THEN PATRICK WILL CHOOSE ME
im the AUTHENTIC PATRICIA!!!!
yayys.
im lookin towards skl for the rubbish-est of reasons
::shakes fists
but im dreadin tomors THERE'S EFFING P.E.
nothing against sports
i hate running.
darn that angela loh who's crazy over it
who says they value the student's opinion anyway
;ha nuff of this
im gone
___________________________________________
[[update
lmao forgot to say tt i bought myself an orange scream city notebk
+one maroon pen
+one blueblack pen
*all proud
teehee. ;D
Monday, January 17, 2005, 10:21 PM
skl was okay today.
Sunday, January 16, 2005, 8:03 PM
alamak...
honestly?
i want to publisize this
it's tiring wanting to care about how people will think about you if you do this, or maybe.. that
{not that i'll stop caring, i find that impossible for anyone to do, at least just for now}
im at a loss. i dknow who i have anymore, besides my family
everyone seemed to have moved on
even wt, who felt that it was so hard
it's so shameful to be close to tears about such a thing
important matter? meagre issue? i dknow.
in fact i dknow anything i dun even know how to do my stupid zhuo wen, just left it on my table, uncompleted
what happened to my goals i wanted to accomplish, desires waiting to be fulfilled
because of me and my incompetence,
they will have to wait
instead of making full use of my time, im doing stupid things like this..
'blogging', I SAY IT WITH ALL DISTASTE
but i dknow where else to go
everyone moved on
it's hard not to feel lost when everyone just moves on without you
as one giant herd, then splitting up into various groups
im not complaining, that's how i feel and i cant choose WHAT to feel so shut it
&then..
everyone will have a hard time leaving the past
then in the end
they'll still manage it,
i dont know how to feel about that
im jealous, that they are leading different [better? worse? does it mean anything?] lives now
im helpless, i dont know what to do
no one seems to really care anymore, they claim that they do, but i know they dont care as much as how they did in the past
they say they do. they all say they do.
sounds like what will come out of an ungrateful, hard-to-satisfy bitch's mouth
but while pausing and thinking,
what if it's the truth? there must be much more important things for them to be concerned bout rather than ME, i mean,
who am i to them.
a friend. someone they can still live w/o so who am i to speak so much?
i dont really throw my tantrums in skl, it's turning out as a lousy move, it's making me feel worse instead
sometimes they ask you to tell it to someone.
just spill every damn word that makes you feel all bad to SOMEONE
anyone
it takes a long time to try
then when you finally open that damn mouth of yours
no one's arnd to listen
just thin air.
and it gets harder to breathe.
Saturday, January 15, 2005, 9:56 PM
hmmmmms
im back to posting sucky pictures
heck. pity those who viewed them
sometimes, i just think i might just give up completely..
but then again
i love photography so much
it's hard to make that cut
however under certain circumtances, during the downside of a moodswing, it doesnt seem that hard anymore, to just... 'give-it-up-alreadyyy!!' *adds flippin hair actions
yeahh.
argh forget that i harboured such a thought, it's photography im talkin about here man..
twas Miss Insecurity typing
i'll try summore, a'ight.
it IS still Miss Insecurity typing here.
oh.
*shrugs
I WILL KILL FOR. A. TRIPOD.
so stop torturing me and GET ME ONE
GET ME ONE. JUST ONE. one small lousy cheap widdle tripod
IM SICK OF USING MY COMPUTER CHAIR
ADJUSTING THE HEIGHT
WITH BOOKS STACKED ON IT
FOR MY CAMERA
ADD-A-BOOK, EXTRACT ANOTHER FROM THE PILE WHENEVR I WNA CHANGE THE HEIGHT
I DUN WNA USE MY LIL PORTABLE DRAWER TO PUT THE CAMERA ON
TODAY I MOVED IT ARND SO MUCH
THE WHEELS POPPED OUT
OH I SHALL BEG ZHI LIN.
SHE SAID SHE HAS ONE!!!
CAME WITH HER CAMERA.
OHH I PROMISE I'LL LOVE HER MUCH MORE IF SHE LENDS ME HER TRIPOD!!!!
=O
teehee.
{i'av used the com for the WHOLE day. it's time to bathe. and read my library books -yum.
(: then sleep under my blankets.}
Thursday, January 13, 2005, 11:00 PM
there's so much going on in me and i cant stop it i dont want to,
if that means i'll stop thinkin bout you, but even if i do, i cant and precisely,
i wont
but it's gettin to be too much to handle
Tuesday, January 11, 2005, 10:29 PM
(: i swear im gna switch off my com @1030 SHARPPP
i gotta go to sleep
stupid chem/SS/eMATHS lessons so friggin sian
today i was nodding off during SSlecture can... alamak.
this is terrible SLEEPSLEEP I NEED SLEEP
and i hvn finish my 2nd du shu bao gao [ER NU YING XIONG ZHUAN, SUCH A STUPID BOOK] yett...
come to me, oh mightyyy green form! o.O
update:// my class is STILL boringgg....
still so quiet...
still so sian...........
everyone still so stoned....
my hair's still as messy i dknow what to do with it SHITE
HAHAHAH THANKS JUSTIN SIAU (he'd wun be readin this)
but thanks for tellin me that i dun suck
appreciated
it's 10.29 bye
AHHH BYE.
Sunday, January 09, 2005, 7:15 PM
.......... babe,
if i'd told you i love you,
would you ask me to forget?
Saturday, January 08, 2005, 7:08 PM
i realize that yest's entry of mine
is verging on narcissism
heh hehhs.. once in a while la horr
;]
mmhms im still sad over stuff i shouldnt be sad about anymore, but i try to avoid the sadness but it's irritating me and i cannot help but to wait as it grows
i think this paragraph a bit of kuku X)
hah.
i had tuition just now..
i hope im better at maths already.. hehhs i can barely remember the stuff with surds tho, it's taught at like. 4weeks ago
i.
i.
LOLS so many sentences startin with 'I'
damn im growing to be narcisstic, someone who deserves to be trashed in society!
actually, i dun think i'av been spammed before yknow
now now.. dont give me a chance of ever knowin how that feels, alright..
haha. ;\ if not i'll become so angry i'd probably rupture and dirty ur new shoes.
=[
i am still 47kg!! maintain sia.
extra dance practices have burned away those nasty calories i gained
haiyerr. if i hvn been stuffin my face in e hols
i might be lighter alreadyy... =[
I HAVE SHRUNK BY 1CM DAMMIT HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN
im currently standing at 161cm
AND WITH THAT IM LIKE SO SAD
i was hopin for at least 163 ;'what's gna happen to that 170cm dream of mine hurrs. HURRRH.
damn it.. haha
now that orientation is over, and the fact that we wun be participatin in danceworks,
doesnt that mean that we'll only be concentrating on SYF dance
*faints
damn suck can, the african dance is soo....
argh.
and syf practices got lao shi.. all work work work.
orientation practices can slack a bit, have fun, the dance itself IS fun
is it freaky that i havent got my earlobes punctured yet
i can live w/o earrings
and it's alright if i dont get my earlobes inflammed if i dont take care of it,
thank you very much
;P
in other words im a coward, =O
HAHAH but honestly?
i hvn seen a particular pair of earrings that i can love to death
and kill myself by havin earholes
just to put it on
=[
[[EDIT]]_______________________________________________________________
hmms. it's gna be a long entry..
i forgot to mention bout the banner incident yesterday...
on thursday i was supposed to bring the dance banner lerrs
it's in my hse as we did it in my hse
the banner, i mean. and with the dance ppl, i mean. GEE dun think wai wai >.<~
then on friday it's like THE day. orient ma.
supposed to hang nice nice, then on thursday night
so many ppl reminded me to bring..
hahah you are expecting me to forgot to bring on friday right..
you are wrong.
I ACTUALLY BROUGHT THE WRONG BANNER OKAYY
HOW IN WURL, I DKNOW HOW
THE DANCEWORKS BANNER HAS TWO PIECES OF BAMBOO AT THE SIDE
AND IN THE PLASTIC BAG IT ALREADY IS IN,
THE NIGHT BEFORE AT HM I TOOK IT OUT (BUT I DIDNT OPEN IT TO SEE)
IT HAS ALL THE DANCEWORKS STUFF, I STILL TOOK THE STUFF OUT SUMMORE
why i so stupid ahh
never once did i suspect it not to be the orientation banner until when it was time for the assembly on friday
it hit like lightning hitting concrete
*__*
darnn. wahh immediately i felt like running in front of the car driving in behind me
how
can
i
be
so
stupid
yes. i know. just by being myself rightt. *rollies
i went to the hall,
valerie came and asked 'did you bring the banner?'
lols that did it.
i started blubberingand said stuff like, 'sorry.. sorry.. wrong banner, i dunno why.. sorry.....'
she said it was okay, asked me not to cry and if my mom will bring it over,
then i calmed down
LMAOO then calanthea came over and said. 'you look like you just cried.'
then i started crying again. no, LOUDER and more tears.. HAHAHAA
you hv no idea how scared i was man -.0
and how i hated myself. friggin stupidity
heng that ppl like me have wonderful mothers
i called my mom, she looked in the storeroom and said she cudnt find
i said i was certain that it's in the storeroom,
then she said she'll sms me when she finds it
in the process of her lookin for the banner, i was frettin like shit during A.Maths
cannot concentrate at all
aftawards, she found it
then i ran to the toilet to call her
she found it in my room, not the storeroom. see, im WRONG again
hahahahah she's so nice
she cycled all the way to skl from tampines just to pass it to me (dknow why she prefers the bicycle to the bus/mrt also.. bicycle more convenient ba?)
she was so nice bout it -.00
perhaps it's cosh she knows that im still in the post-freaked-out state
hahah im so unlucky and lucky at the same time
im stoppin now. ;]
Friday, January 07, 2005, 10:23 PM
dance rocked so muchhhh today
the orientation concert was okay... better than okay, but the hiphop finale was messy =\\ i kinda screwed the front part up...
but hell, we did our best, i had plenty of fun and i dare say
WE ROCKEDDDDD. ARE STILL ROCKING. WILL STILL BE ROCKING
challenges on the way
shortage of time
a hell lot of practices
im feeling faithful, i love dance
i love how we always seem to make it
or even, try as hard as possible to make it past the line
'tis a helluva day to remember.
and as i was moving my ass all over the place, (-.0000)
i recalled sumthng that happened in primary 4...
my class was gna perform this dance...
during the practices,
i got picked on by this girl in my class, she choreographed e dance
britney spears; oops i did it again.
the one who danced the nicest amongst us.. who can shake and move
and i couldnt.
i just couldnt...
she made everyone stop and asked me to do it, and i failed completely
like a block of wood
i just couldnt move properly... the way they wanted me to..
the way i wanted to
i was in a bright yellow halter-styled top with little bits of sparkling stone on it, specially bought for the performance
we changed and rehearsed in the empty hall..
after changing, i felt happy, like most girls, in clothes they thought were pretty
but she had to ashame me in front of 6 friends...
i cried.
my other friends egged me on, comforted me, but i just couldnt do it
i felt like the lousiest person on earth
even till now, i can rmbr and still feel the mixture of anger, irritation, embarrassment, sense of helplessness and.. i despised myself.
so nervous.
i was so nervous.
she had the confidence,
i didnt.
now i have.
all the hard work preparing for it
plus the words of encouragement coming from people who care
encouraging me to let go..
and just shake it, baby
Thursday, January 06, 2005, 10:23 PM
im in...
TREE BEE.
minqi loves her class. in fact...
many ppl like their new class..
haha i hope i can say the same in the near future
im giving it time i guess
*shrug shrugs
whats happening now in my class is..... nothing.
honestly.. it's boring me to sleep, being so quiet..
YUCKS. it sucks
haha so i cant wait for bondin camp!!
whee. HO.
mmhms... im tryin to be more organized nowadays... [not to mention being studious, hardworking, pleasant to talk to HAHAHAHAHAAAA I CAN JUST DREAM ON]
a messy life can be toxic afta being lived for 14years
yayy for that.. let's see what happens
if i give up afta like... one day or sumthng hehh
URMMMMS CHEMISTRY SUCKS
IT'S SOOOOO BORHREHHHNG
BORING SHITE YUCKSYUCKSYUCKS
*spits
cally's bdae is coming soon.. time flies. not long ago it was mine.
nvm at least i can look forward to sumthng
stupid me i shudnt hv smsed him.
Sunday, January 02, 2005, 5:50 PM
i usually hate the start of a new year
why. i hate the way people cannot make a clean break away from the past.
even on new year's eve
i hate it when my brother tosses his old pencil box onto
the study desk with no care of what happens to it
and hugs his new branded one with a face that says, 'at last'
but didnt i do the same with my old wallet.
clothes.
every bit of old stuff which i own.
well. i guess that's humans for you.
____________________________________
___________________________
i didnt spend new year feeling lonely
&oh, i cannot give anymore.
because
you want nothing coming from me
my love, a bit of care, nothing
there's nothing in me i'av not tried giving you
so oh, i cannot give anymore
gwyn is back!! at lasst.