OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Friday, April 29, 2005, 10:56 PM
lama i feel so lamaa
screw my hiatus honey im homeeee
;DD
hmms today on bus sumthng spastic happened.
dis guy who was standin nxt to me {arnd... 17yrs old? 16?
suddenly asked me when to stop if he wants to go
tamp regional lib.
i said 3-4 stops later, im nt sure.
then dis woman seated in front of us started tellin him la
aft gettin his ans, he asked me if twas my
paper one today.
i said yes,
&he laughed.
den he said he didnt know wht to write for his.
him 'where are you frm?'
me 'singapore?'
him 'your chinese dont sound lyk singaporean's.' {wait is he implyin tht it sounds cheena OR it sounds damn lousy? lols.
me 'is it... haha.'
2seconds later twas my stop
&he said bye
mmmhms he doesnt look lyk a bad guy la
dont look e slightest perverse.
just friendly
he has quite a cute smile as well.
ppl nowadays. gettin so friendly it's quite disturbin
btw my compos today ahh.. alamak all of very low standard
i screwed english's endin up.
bahh in the end the whole story became lyk sum
dark gothic horror movie, darnn
freakshows.
tdaas
im sleepy.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005, 8:56 PM
lols mcgee
im in such a state
&i miss your presence
&how ur advice's so well given
if only you can see me now,
i'av changed much, no?
toodles if ur here
awwright. LOLS toodles is.......
whtevr. holler if ur readin these
i changed my url riiight. SIGHH
mygdness i'av forgotten when mcgee started givin me advice
oh yes. arnd march last yr. arghh i changed my blog
;\cant believe it he was counsellin me bout another guy, non-sw
HAHAH
things r worse now. the shit i get into
O_______________o
whtevrs. he's such a kind soul ;]]
i wonder if he's doin ok
ooofph im suchh a DORK lmao
im off guys for now
'll b surgically attached to my textbks for a while
bahh guys suck. whoooops.
'll be on hiatus for at least...
dknow.
you shall be the first
to witness the grand... transformation of THE guai kia.
loviees eat your dnrs on time
&smile when u see me, who knows
i might be livin off ppl's enthusiasm for quite a while
START DOODLIN ON YER DESKS HOMBRES
Sunday, April 24, 2005, 5:20 PM
im such a bad girl....
hv been doin nothing right recently
i mean it when i say 'nothing'
some ppl r makin me so friggin mad
i hate them &i want to slit their throats
so they can stop all their babbling
nonsensical words
it's horrible really to feel that anger bubblin in you
ready to bubble out of you
fug i know the english sucks here
leave it.
she wants to anger me &she has succeeded
i really want to kill her
stab her &see her blood stain my sleeves
maybe that will appease such hatred
Saturday, April 23, 2005, 11:13 PM
if yaar gna read this,
&think to urself, 'boyyyy. she jus craves for some attention.
lemme jus read this to see how terrible she is, maybe think of wht to bitch abt her AFTA my pinky nails are dried.',
get your sorry ass out,
-directs
&go read sum other un-angsty entries SOMEWHERE ELSE instead, loser
go read bout some other girl who was eatin scrambled eggs for breakfast this morn, or the poor boy who spilt 3/4 of his milo while chasin for the damned bus to skl
dance fest was crazy. in a giddy, wild, flashin disco lights way
sentosa was fun, definitely, but im sunburnt
howevr
tht doesnt make me feel less lyk a blob of whatsnot wiv 824995drops of red clred flavourin floatin in it
im THT hateful
im
im so incredibly hateful
sumtyms i feel guilty when sum ppl dont really know how hateful im
are they blind
dont they see or are they pretending
i hate my face
you hate/hate* it too
i hate my flabs
you hate/hate* them too
i hate my fucked up attitude
you hate/hate* it too
i hate tree-trunkey legs
you hate/hate* them too
i hate my disgusting hair. whoops i mean grass
you hate/hate* it too
i hate the stuff i say at horrible timings
you hate/hate* them
i hate how i spend lyk hell
you hate/hate* it too
i hate how i wasnt -note, past tense- gd enough for him
you hate/HATE* me too
i hate how im still nvr good enough for EVERYONE
i hate myself.
you hate/HATE* me MORE
this IS NOT/IS* an angst filled entry, fuck? i cant be bothered really.
*delete where applicable. dont hv mucha a choice, really.
, 11:13 PM
if yaar gna read this,
&think to urself, 'boyyyy. she jus craves for some attention.
lemme jus read this to see how terrible she is, maybe think of wht to bitch abt her AFTA my pinky nails are dried.',
get your sorry ass out,
-directs
&go read sum other un-angsty entries SOMEWHERE ELSE instead, loser
go read bout some other girl who was eatin scrambled eggs for breakfast this morn, or the poor boy who spilt 3/4 of his milo while chasin for the damned bus to skl
dance fest was crazy. in a giddy, wild, flashin disco lights way
sentosa was fun, definitely, but im sunburnt
howevr
tht doesnt make me feel less lyk a blob of whatsnot wiv 824995drops of red clred flavourin floatin in it
im THT hateful
im
im so incredibly hateful
sumtyms i feel guilty when sum ppl dont really know how hateful im
are they blind
dont they see or are they pretending
i hate my face
you hate/hate* it too
i hate my flabs
you hate/hate* them too
i hate my fucked up attitude
you hate/hate* it too
i hate tree-trunkey legs
you hate/hate* them too
i hate my disgusting hair. whoops i mean grass
you hate/hate* it too
i hate the stuff i say at horrible timings
you hate/hate* them
i hate how i spend lyk hell
you hate/hate* it too
i hate how i wasnt -note, past tense- gd enough for him
you hate/HATE* me too
i hate how im still nvr good enough for EVERYONE
i hate myself.
you hate/HATE* me MORE
this IS NOT/IS* an angst filled entry, fuck? i cant be bothered really.
*delete where applicable. dont hv mucha a choice, really.
Saturday, April 16, 2005, 12:41 AM
silver for syf
horribly disappointing.
but i <33dance even more now
almost everyone in it, love
;responsibilities
i didnt take up in e past
Tuesday, April 12, 2005, 8:16 PM
if i had my way, i'd love a boy wiv a really good name
wes.
or even lee glaze.
sounds like something you wud sprinkle on top of an icecream scoop
names wiv a nice ring to it.
as i shape hearts over his name over my doodlings
people will lean, lookin over my shoulder at all my {secrets
made public as i want em to know you}
i want to know if green*eyed monsters rear their heads on ur necks like
how they often do on mine
they think to themselves
what a pretty name. they want it for their own.
if i was feelin happy bout our two-second conversation last night,
i'll paint your name wiv their blood on my wounds
if you forgot to call me in spite of your promises
i knew u'd break,
i'll snap my bk shut &pull my fangs into a smile
28days before a year
28days before i remember
right now i'll use your name for my own.
bruised lips from kissin the wall*
;wes.
*ok. dont take tht literally
Thursday, April 07, 2005, 8:58 PM
feeling: despondent
listening to: NOTHING besides e click clack of e keyboard.
nothing related to any music of e sort.
just to save some of u much inconvenience, here it is
de·spon·dent - Feeling or expressing despondency; dejected.
also means being without or almost without hope
it's 'without hope', btw. &well, sleep on it.
lets say tht im not lookin forward to the maths test tomors
god i cant leave it just like tht, can i
thinkin bout e Amaths test tomors
makes me feel like
crap.
utter crap.
in ways so numerous.
i'd count em &list em out one by one, if thts what it takes
to not to sit for e test tmr.
it knots me up in tangles, {think non-literal, unless u wna picture my brains
my head hurts even THINKIN bout e possible
questions which will be printed on tht..
THING. paper.
possible questions WHICH I DONT HV E ANSWERS TO
coordinate geometry, for me, is THT dreadful
even scorin a 17.5/20 for chem class test isnt makin it any better
BAHH.
e fuggin amths test will be e first test i'll b failin in e recent wks.
WTFFUK tht makes it worse.
I like painting my nails just so I can chip the paint.
irrelevant(?), but thts me.
;things
Tuesday, April 05, 2005, 8:14 PM
i hvn failed any test YET so far, since e march hols ended {just a few wks really,}
*smacks.
oooh cmon we had geog test bio test emaths test chem test
&i didnt fail any!!
aightaight... i hvn exactly gotten chem test back yet
fine. im being conceited ALRRREADY.
but e chances of flunkin it are purdy low(;
-slaps wooden desk. secarly really fail ahh.
sucks to know tht ders a test i'll be flunkin soon enough -dis friday
BAHHH INSANITY
e only way to not fail is.............................
WHAAAT.
stop lookin at me LIDDAAT.
what u want me to do hurr LISTEN TO POHPOH DURIN MATHS??!
abt geometry whatevur?
E ULTIMATE TORTURE METHOD YOU CAN COME UP WITH
lols i tried listenin in class BUT I JUST CANT GET IT
bahhhness.
i think it's one of dose shite when u miss a small part,
'you get thrown off the truck' quotes mr pohpohh the red tellytubby
who suffocated in its red suit
due to the overwhelming size of the head
yeahh so im dependin on tuition later
;\\
cant slp early tonyt again
major bummer.
Saturday, April 02, 2005, 11:50 PM
moo.
no one ever asks me to blog.
{temperamental, ehh.} lmao
nvm tht givs mehh a chance to be as lazy as how i'd lyk to be
sleep on darkened rings tht
sink beneath orbs of sight
in wrinkled folds.
short insatiable few-worded entries.
there you go