OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Monday, January 30, 2006, 3:33 PM
taken in the november holidays 2oo5,
bad lighting in my room,though it sort of adds to this i feel
am tired of looking through old images,i
want something else,something different
something new.
i hvnt quite taken to this yet,perhaps it'll
grow on me in time,
but i hope you like it anyway.<3s
(i hve four tests on thurdays WTHH.chinese new year
hols're strictly for hsevisiting thr is simply no time
to flip through the textbook,&here youre talkin bout
STUDYING.
{&here i am,bloggingggggg..............)
gahh.POINT MADE,ANYWAY.
, 3:40 AM
the day was weell...........chinesenewyear-ish.
lots of housevisiting,
granddad's hse in tanjongpagar.
ohhyes he is the proud owner of several
professional cameras,all old models though.
all the pictures taken of
his family(my mom's family) were taken
&developed by him.he has got quite a great eye,howevr
he contained all of em in this big plastic bag,he's throwing
them out.all of them.
some..problems.
the hurt my mother felt was reflected in her
eyes.i was looking thru the bag,
trying to retrieve whtevr tht has my mom &her mom in it,
yahh wanted to lug the whole bag home but mom
insisted tht we shd just let him throw it away.
'i don't want them.'
'but why dont we just bring it home,then we can sort them out &keep some.'
'BUT I DON'T WANT THEM.'
RAHHR.it was quite apparent,how she refused to
show tht she cared since my granddad didnt care enough
to keep them photographs.
ayyes.you could hack at the tension in the flat
with a pair of chopsticks.
it was hectic in my uncle's place at jurong,
one relative hollers,&everyone starts hollering to
be heard,theyre a hilarious lot.especially the aunties
&female cousins
we gambled
&drank a LITTLE twas quite enjoyable,really
angbaos WHEEE.i think imma break my routine
of depositing the money into my acct this year!
spendspendspendd.
i hate not taking pictures.
but i cant,not when im hsevisiting all
the time &strangely the thought of bringing
my camera along puts me off.
Sunday, January 29, 2006, 2:24 AM
i try to take pictures of delicate realities
right before when they shatter,too
a tangle of limbs:that's art
trickling of blood cancers of disbeliefs
in them art lives
i am deluded.&this is art to you
why the negavity;
art exists in the brightest hues
but i am nowhere now,i have strayed and
we are all far away from
the path
leading to such painfully slow progress
photographs are the memories willing us to remember
also:the ones we are willing to remember.
Friday, January 27, 2006, 12:49 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CALS
.i....UHHM lurbee euu!like more than a lot a lot a lot.
&i hope nothing'll sadden you on your day,yaa?
these words have no reason,like how staring into
thin air makes no difference.thin air to all who think they know,but i
think i see you
.delete and repeat whatever i
haven't done,but have lived to do.
you swear you have
stories to tell,cleverly weaved
stories meant to deceive
.awaken slow,growing cancers of disbelief.
alas your stories mean nothing like how
loving me means nothing now
(im sorry to end this on such a low note)
Tuesday, January 24, 2006, 8:23 PM
..they had a tiff last night.&i was..totally oblivious to it?
until she said,like just now.jeez
they could be throwing chairs,&i wouldnt
even realize.wtf is wrong with me.
Sunday, January 22, 2006, 2:33 PM
(as you can see
im out of gas when it comes to bloggggging,
im sure tht is quite apparent.
heavenknwswhy im still here littering your screen with pixels.)
it sucks being sick so ive
taken my medicine like the good girl i am
.i'll be up &going
in a jiffy.&seeing
tht i hvnt given my hwkstack a single poke yet,
i dtfeel like heading out for new yr clothes
tday.
had a petty tiff with my mom again i feel my temper
going up a notch by the passing second.
the towering stack is growing in height &im prepared
to fail my ss sbq test tmmrs;boooo.
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF HVIN TO CARE ABOUT.SCHOOL.
______________________
saying no to shoppin?hahah.i must REALLY
be ill.in the head.out of the head.
.think imma head out now.
anws im growing to like the tilting HDBflat picture i hope you
love the hues as much as i do
TAHH,
Saturday, January 21, 2006, 5:06 AM
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
So take your suitcase, cause I don't mind
And baby, I meant it every time
You don't need to compromise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
But it's alright...(the killers)
the flecks of dirt 'rnt photoshopbrushes,
they are
spots on my windows.
tilting
towers,tilt till you fall.
Thursday, January 19, 2006, 8:51 PM
okayokay hvnt updated for..a few days.
tday we had two tests.
bio wasnt particularly easy
i didnt study much,
esp those chem.formulas for
the carbofatsETC ETC.
,think i'll scrape through though
chem was..SHIT.hehs.die.
ohhyes braces hurt BAAD
but yah i lasted throughout the
movie inotstupidtwo
HAHAH.sorry but i slammed the movie aplenty
bfor i actually..watched it
.wells.
it just didnt really appeal to me..BUT.
well went for it just now,at three,
along with like 1/4 of anglican high.
it was a MAJOR TEARJERKER.which is GOOD.
saw many potential MUST-watchers posters
on display.all coming soon-s.
probably..sometime in feb.
LETS GO,YAHH!
ohh yes,go catch inotstupidtwo in cinemas TDAY.
uhhm mayb not tday,but tmmrs.
or the wkends.
it REALLY is not the stupid sg film which youve in mind now
OKAY.the sms signal has
rung TWICE.
&BOTH TIMES.WERE MY BROTHER'S.
lolols.he's been on this smsing spree evr since..
two days ago.some girl called vivien,
some guy called ryan.
apparently ryan likes
viven,&my brother thinks vivien is pretty though
he doesnt like her.
but uhhm vivien likes this beng frm another
class.
whoooo i dtremember my secone year
being so..exciting.AHAH.
they send really short msges,&man,THE SPEED.
hahah.kinda reminds me of my secone days,
thousandplusplus messages.
but my msges were loong i think ive had
ppl complaining bout my lengthy replies
ahahah.i make FULL use of the 160letters.
oh yaa
zhilin pls FEEL BETTER alright!
lots of love(i hope you get to read this)
brother wansta use the com now;msn
'huh msn for WHAT,why need to talk to your
friends. waste time only'
HE said tht sometime in.........jan2005.
HAH.timesve changed.
cca tmmrs
i do not knw why but im really dreading it.
the passion's gna
die out on me bfor i knw it,at the rate im going
.badbadbad;\
Monday, January 16, 2006, 9:27 AM
But is there any comfort to be found?
Man is in love and loves what vanishes,
What more is there to say?
~W. B. Yeats
(very true,hvnt we all gone through
the pains of only cherishing something
when it is gone.
well.a really bad habit of mine)
Mark Twain:
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody is watching.
J. Krishnamurti:
You must understand the whole of life,
not just one little part of it.
That is why you must read,
that is why you must look at the skies,
that is why you must sing and dance,
and write poems, and suffer, and understand, for all that is life
computer lab-bed.
, 12:52 AM
I AM SO FED UP WITH SEARCHING FOR
WKRNJLNFNQWRLNLNWFLNRNDAMNED CHINESE
CHARACTERS.
the fast way of searchin
doesnt hve 'du' 'bao' gao' of 'du shu bao gao'
boy oh boy tells me a lot bout THE TIME
IMMA SPEND ON
THIS.
THING.which im gna fail anws.
_______________
okay!i figured out how to search properly.
took me long.
typin was..easier aftwards.
ughh.WHT TIME SSIT NOW.
gna be really tired tmmrs.
morningmorning ohh how the dark sky beckons.
Sunday, January 15, 2006, 5:07 PM
band concert was ystrdy!they did
very well,but we ended up sitting..at the back
woaah WHAAY back bcus yz &i
were late
well i was later than her cus i
hadta rush to tampinesmall to buy
weitheng's sunflower
ahahah.so chionged up the hill
in a cab,if not wudve reached at like,
eight.
uhhms yah.but we went upstairs to stand &watch
aft the interval.preferred watchin like tht.
aft the concert ended,we went to simpang
for milodino &durianprata(which wasnt really nice)
&thr were many soccer fans(ahs &non ahs) thr,their
eyes all glued onto
the tv.
marcus came over to talk to cals &a little to us
cus he wasnt really into soccer.
GERMANY TRIP CANNOT BE CANCELLED.
it sorta ruined the mood which
pretty much wasnt thr in the first place
yz's face totally fell when she heard frm gwuns lurhh...
ayyes dtbe TOO disappointed girly yah?hugs-
i was.SO looking forward
to the trip with mahh weirdyyyy(YES,four 'y's gwuns) girlfs.
hope thrs still space for negotiation.like..push back
a little,till bird flu's almost gone or sth.as long as the trip's still on.
righteeoh.the BIG Os.
prelims,yadahyadahh.
am laggin behind in my classes.
my math teacher(UHHMS forgot his name) went
frm binomial whtevr to matrices at a breakneck pace
yini &i were thrown off the truck at the very first lesson
the nxt lesson;the truck was 291585901490134km away frm us.
...a plane in disguise.
it is starting to scare me,
the teachers seem to be speaking
in foreign languages nowadays.
well,they ALWS hve been.
then again,i didnt care THEN.
LOLS.yiting is finally worryin bout
her studies!tis a record.
band still rocked lah
strangely the whole concert felt so short,like
it lasted for barely an hour.
in fact twas like,two hours long.
hah.am supposed to do my chinese ppt tday
BUT I DTHVE THE HANSTHINGEY.
_____________
(okay ive figured out how to type in chinese,thanks to hj
dtneeda hans thingey.xp rocks.
but ive got nth to type bout SINCE I HVNT READ
THE BOOK YET.
yaah.i hve no book to read,unless i
reuse the..ones we did last year.)
no idea how to do the chinese work.
senseless blog entry.
Saturday, January 14, 2006, 6:10 PM
sometimes,'sorry' works.
for me it does....
yet,sometimes..it doesn't
if it does,it is only bcus it DOES mean sth to me when
the person bothers to salvage whtevr's left.
.why,you wont knw till you actually
try.but hey,what am i sayin.
you wont even bother to,no?
nuhuhh i'm tired of harbourin hopes
tht ppl do actually give a hoot.
wheeeeees concertbandCONCERT.
i hope it's gna be GOOD.&QUIT THINKIN.
______________________
man wht an..uncanny coincidence.sms received.
, 2:28 AM
1)AHAH.this is dumb.&dtask me bout my..middle finger.ohhgeezums.
2)alright so we can't really pose.
3)tryin to look..sehh HAHAH uhhm failed terribly.still,dance is almighty eyys!
im determined to not be feelin all mopey.
so.here're some picts
, 2:15 AM
so i am a bitch/moodswinger who rants bout matters
which others'd prefer to not knw bout in here.seeing tht earth is a messed up place
full of messed up people......but.this.is.myspace?
look,go far far away if you cant stand me.
my high level of tolerance is indeed astonishing
,well i certainly can't stand myself,yet im still not suicidal.yet.
.can someone do me a favour &enlighten me please.
whatve i screwed up this time?didnt i try reduce the hurt,instead of
leaving like how i used to..
this time,ive given more than the previous failed
friendships,
muchmuch more.
just..let go the prev few times.
didnt really care much.cudnt afford to
but it turns out tht i WAS smart to not hve.caring almost
equates to handing someone a dagger.
..uhh.you might not see the link
but nvrmind.
but then again
..we were expecting this,weren't we.
youve successfully made me feel
like the lousiest person ever in the whole wide world,
AND thr seriously ARE some lousy peeps on earth.
somehow,im worse off.
it doesnt help yknw,i am already this insecure about being me
&when people dislike me,(or at least,when i feel tht they do)i am this close to falling apart
it's worsening....i can barely lift my head at times..in the classroom..
it does sound farfetched,&how i wish i can say tht it is..exaggerated.
in my view,theyre right,theyve their reasons
&theyre absolutely.correct.i deserve to be disliked.
can you see whr is this going?im gna crumble soon.
friends mean this much to me
i dont really open up to many people.which is quite apparent,really.
alright so im this HUUGE loser tht
no one wansta be friends with eyys.
whoopedeedoodah..pop em bottles,finally another
reason to celebrate!
ohhCOOL i can count the number of friends i hve
IN JUST ONE HAND!
hah,i somehow choose the wrong people to care for
MOST OF THE TIME.
a KEEPAWAY sign branded onto my left cheek,tht is exactly wht i need.
you knw.i AM overreacting.
since other ppl do not give a hoot about it,eyys
ill try to do the same
(black friday no more)
Thursday, January 12, 2006, 11:58 PM
i do not know what i want,
what i don't,what
i can say &what i can't do to you
i don't want to,so
just let me be,don't ever stop me;let me
go on
being hopelessly hopeless
, 11:50 PM
im down for english remedial.
.THIS.IS.NOT.HAPPENING
ohh yes it is.
i failed my diagnostic test.14/30
bahdahdahhh.so i was too complacent.
..ughh so i treated it like some
kinda joke.
NOWW so regrettable it's gna
cost my TIME.to stay back for compowritingexercises
PROBABLY.hahahll enjoy it if it's..
narrative.BUT scuse me i don't do expository.
twas a friggin compo for friggin's sake.
i was kinda put off by the fact tht thr
werent any narratives
so using the first title,
out of sheer..stubborness(no such word?)
(whtevr,rmbr,this is coming frm the girl who failed her english compo)
i wrote in a
casual narrative style,pockets of humour here &thr
doubleslapsself.wht was i thinkin!
i knew i was gna flop,but
failing?i was this close frm going into
a long term state of shock.
hehsss
the humiliation.is.hard.togetover
WBE.whaaay below expectation...geezums
eyys hvnt been talkin to my WEIRDYS for quite some time.
hahah skl's kinda hectic.in this toned down,monotonous way.
ayyes sorry for not spendin much time
with yall nowadays HEHSS
MISSED ME MISSED ME!?
back to eng remed.
is it not clear to you yet tht,
im showing certain reluctance to..attending it.......
hah who am i tryin to kid.youll hvta to
DRRRRAG ME THR.
engremedial here i come
whtevrr
why dt i just look at it......as an opportunity
to unsuck my expository writing.
go positive thinking,GO ME
i.are.WEIRDY!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006, 10:52 PM
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do(yes I do)
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)
From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feeling of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me think that I could live my life like this everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
That everyday that I spend with you
I will miss you cus I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)
maybe i haven't forgiven you yet,for the
sins you didn't commit.
theyve slipped your mind,in the
least conspicuous way
ever
rough jostling.this is abuse -
the left corner of his smile went a shade darker.
the slow purpling of a bruised soul
his arteries black&blue,his heart
a dark wound/a dark mass of pumping muscle
i had to take a picture of his smile
all he had;all but a smile
'but no one ever showed me how.'
i asked the girl at the counter to do a quick
demonstration,pretending to load some film
but honesty be it which runs in
our shattered veins:i sneaked darting glances,
to learn my own.to learn how to,too.
his flickered on &off in the darkroom
on his face,a smile i could so clearly see
a slow spreading stain on his face,the canvas.
Monday, January 09, 2006, 11:57 PM
schoooool was.school.
i didnt hand in scrapbk cus i completed
only seven articles.ayyes now imma get
a BIGFATOH....................zero.
gna finish up(soon) &hand in on weds.
grovel at sim's feet &beg ahahah we'll see.
why do i care bout the CA anws
at least three ppl asked me the exact same ques
tday 'why do you care bout CA.eyy you care one mehh'
UHHMS excuse me.
helluuuu yessssums i do
lols but i feel so heck now.rahr.
we had dance pract tday,was kinda
a slack pract,for danceworks.
danced a few rounds,then i went to
brainstorm with my sandwichboardians.
eyys came up with a few ideas &all
but ive decided to leave the board to
them,hope itll turn out really fantastic.
imma concentrate on dancetee WHEN i start on it.
ahahah.it IS exciting to come up
with a cca's shirt design.hah theyll be
stuck with it for a yearrr.ugly or not
THEYLL HVTA WEAR IT EVERY WEEK.
till nxt yr's
creative director comes up with another
design.wheeeeeze*
im gna use the word 'dance' on the shirt
which i did for the dance flyers eyys
since some think
tht it looks nice.ahah blushflushh.IAMBORINGYOURIGHT.
bcus im not in the mood to blog at all.
im freezing up think it's the daylongrain &..yeahh the
daylongrain.
my fingers can barely move &i can't really sms properly.
nor type.howevr my face feels so warm.
feeling achey like how i do when i hve a fever
NONOONO i cannot be sick.
freeezhen burnennn.
uhhmdeeduhhs.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006, 11:01 PM
seconddayofschool.
schoolyear minus twodays=whtevr thrs left.
a test of endurance.
homework,tchrs,classmates all these
scare me.
what is happening exactly,i can't be
too sure....i am..too out of things to keep track.
desperately need my
loong hours of sleep.but thrs just no
time.hah.i soo deserve this.
!slacking
so much during the hols
i cudve just set aside a week to do the hol hwk
BUT too late now,i didnt.
i am.....THISSSS far
frm finishing my english
bookreview thingeyyy.
hve i mentioned yet,how i hatehatehatehate
hwk?
CURSES.
geog's untouched.tmmrs im hving
orientation rehearsal
im just gna sleep
,cant finish my
english anws.at the rate im being
distracted.my 'the part of the book which
i like' seems too polished..&too inloveeewiththebook
i sound no different
frm a raving fan of Little Women
HAH &the summary simply looks...copied.
just a quarter done.MAN the big OHHs're gna come
soooon &imma be bowled over
maan.i AM stressed out.but..BY WHT.
slacking
too much?ruhhr
dancedancedancedance cant
wait for orientation to be OVR &DONE WITH.
ayyes am writing THIS,WHTEVR THIS IS,off
as some bloody moodswing(the last thing i need now)
lyrics-
time waits for no one
but you i'd wait for so long
but still i feel the times
of your rolling eyes around here
take a walk with a sweet girl
so sweet you know it`s true
but you`re wasting away
i just wish it would stay
take a walk down a highway
down my way
take a walk when you feel miserable
one date you`ll find
your eyes and a woman who`s kind
could you still fill the day
if you ran out of me
take a walk down a highway
down my way
take a walk when you feel miserable
Tuesday, January 03, 2006, 8:13 PM
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
anws.sth spastic happened hah i had an hour&ahalf-long busride instead of the usual fifteen minutes
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
apparently some construction was goin on so right outside tampines interchange(whr the buses get out),
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
thr was only one lane available 'stead of two lanes.
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
a bore.the bus barely moved &twas such a jam.
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
for bout like...an hr.
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
finally the bus managed to cross the traffic light
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
BUT.the driver made a turn &everyone went,'maan whr is this bus goin'
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
it wasnt supposed to turn.
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
then he realized he made a mistake
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
started cussin &stuff LOUDLY
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
he made a few more turns.
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
&we went back to whr we started frm,,jammed a while more
- ( .dee CEMBAR.(no more) .OHH.NOTHINGIS SOUND. says:
then got back hm.
i thought these guys hve been drivin
down the same route for years.
nvrmind hah a first for everything.
happy first day at school to you too
firrrrrrst day bluuues
3b got ganesan &im happy to say tht
she beats poh,hands down.WAIT.i mean 4b.
ayye but she seems much stricter than
the past though.eyys whtevr.
school tday......how absolutely frightful.
maan,&we hvnt started on the lessons yet.
school's suddenly..so darn unfamiliar GOODNESS
i feel so out of place,in the oddest places
,toilets
,classrooms,corridors,canteen
basically..everywhr hah.
ive felt like hiding in a supersized burger king paper bag
for TOO MANY TIMES TDAY
tht's bad eyys lets hope thingsll get a little
better HRMS ive got
dance pract tmmrs aft skl,&like tday
i'll hvta literally drag my unresponsive body(short torso &all)arnd
wheee wht fun
to counter the fatigue i shall slp soon.eight plus HAHAHAH
dumbarsed.
&the clothes we bought for orientatnre........................eyys.
lets just put it this way,they were nth like wht
i had in mind but
theyll..do.
i hope we'll look fine in em dancing.importance.
SEMITRANSPARENT BLACK STOCKINGS.ARE HIDEOUS.
charred legs charrrrred legs
thankyou jy for the bear eyys tharrrrnks.(dtthink youll get to read this anws)
Sunday, January 01, 2006, 2:45 AM
loong entry ahead.
LOLS
the sweets,they bite my tongue.
geezums like..pineapple
must be the overdose
such pretty sweets i can stare at them for hours
BUT OH SO ADDICTIVE
cant stop.popping.them.intomymouth yumm.
HAHAHAHAH alright.it shall be
a new yr treat for myself:D
thanks hj(we still owe you a present,pls constantly remind us)
,&calanthea for spending time deciding wht to buy
i spent a year in calanthea's hse hehs 2oo5-2oo6
we ate steamboat!&twas sad tht yz wasnt thr
grrahr she had cousins over in her hse counting down
weells i hope you had fun too grlfyyy;]
we missed going to escape though FREE ADMISSION!(came with the chalet package)
last day!sixtyoverbucks down the drrrain
we didnt hve time tday's schedule was
packed!okayokay so we spent too much time at hm
but gwuns managed to get her hair cut over at
marina'sq.
the cut's not bad,quite a different look
we hvnt seen it non-blow-straight yet
but i sort of prefer her older one.mayb thts cus im not
used to it yet,LOLS dont worry bout it lovvve
youll look beautiful BALD
oh yes.steamboat.AHAH cals gwuns songhon janice me.
the steamboat was so....................quiet it was rather eerie.
ahahah..not A LOT of food actually definitely not
the amnt i usually eat at home
but nonetheless,filling.
must be all tht awkward laughter.
we must do it moremoremoremore often.with everyone present!
alright. SO PEOPLE.IT IS
(..the much awaited?greatly dreaded....?)
TWO OH OH....................SIX.
man,it has been two hours,
&im still not used to it yet.
shd i be all nostalgic,&start reminiscing about
2oo5.
eyys i dtknw,bcus i don't feel nostalgic,really,
i feel.....threatened.the entire year has passed too
quickly,it seems tht it has been taken away from me unfairly
bcus
basically,i hvnt done much,or accomplished anything
in 2oo5.i want a another chance,a second go at this ye....sorry,LAST
year,bcus thr could hve been so much more done.
but eyys,i hve no one else to blame but myself,
&i can so see myself typing sth like this next yr.
hve you thought bout it,
nxt yr,when we're all
comfortably seated in front of our computers,
blogging about 2oo6,the year which has passed like
the other years,
we'd hve completed our O's,&graduated frm secskl,
awaiting another inevitable fresh start
LOLS IM STARTING TO BLOG LIKE AN OLDOLD LADY.
i better curb the stuff im typing,or else i'd be
all sad &weepy by the time it's threeo'clock.AYE.
this year.......nothing much happened this year
got into a new class,made very few new friends,
kept the few best friends i hve thank heavens for tht
kept the friendships i didnt want to lose with a limited number of friends
lols i dont keep my friends easily.AND i dont make friends easily.
yiting's social circle=WHAT social circle.?
,studied like zilchhh,
scored crap results for the exams.this so totally
was a slack year(despite them tchrs warning us about it)
MAAN.well honeymoon yr's over.
though it didnt feel
tht much like a honeymoon,but hell i slacked the year away.
unknwingly. knwingly. DTKNWW.
dance.we had the SYF competitions this yr,&we got
a silver.sobs.we worked hard only when twas
coming at us, &tht's really sad bcus the seniors put
a lot of effort in it.
ayy.regrettable. STRANGELY,SYF feels like twas held..
last year.LOLS &the new yr celebration we had in
sw's hse feels like only mths ago.
garhh.
why,my biggest accomplishment this yr is.............
accepting the fact tht WHTEVR LITTLE WE HAD is gone,
getting over him.hah!spastic i know,
but hello world,newsflash: it took a year &a half.
however i hvnt stopped believing(completely) tht
it's due to my flaws,&basically my fault tht
im not good enough for him..yadahyadahh
HAH.we've gotta wait uhhms a little while mor for that one.
im feeling all positive &happy tonight.i want 2oo6
to be SUCH AN AMAZING YEAR FOR ALL OF US.
four days ago it has just been my birthday yessums
youre talking to a fifteenyrol' now!(rather,reading stuff typed
by a fifteenyrol')(it was
much much btr than last yr's,thank you all)
tonight(this morning,whtevr)2oo5 has officially
become..last year.
STRRANGE.
RESOLUTIONS
ive nvr stuck to em,not for a single year
&i don't even set my resolutions every year.
1)be a better person to others,&to myself.
2)START SAVING MONEY.(for them shopping sprees.
OR WHT IF A PROBLEM CROPS UP &you need the dosh)
3)stop trying to change myself with the mindset,
anyone,anyone but me
4)improve in areas like...academics-wise,dance, &PHOTOG
5)try.try hard to be thr when someone needs me
&try let someone be thr when i need her/her
those who had their fair share of fun &happiness in 2oo5,
tht's pretty awesome
&may such luck continue in the coming year..eyys NO DAMN.THISSSS year
for those who didnt hve it all tht jolly LAST YR,no fuss doods it's all over,
good things're
happening this 2oo6 i can so feel it.
happy new year(&much love) to all.