OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Tuesday, January 23, 2007, 1:48 AM
goodness is she mad is she absolutely maaad
it's about two am.
well yeah.all this would be okay if i aint going to sch tmmrs,wouldnt it
;[ why,i got myself a bad cold so i ain't turning up for school tomorrow.
plusplus i burned my fingers with the stove{terrible mishap!aah how i regret
complaining about my hairy fingers so much.
now whtevr's left on my left hand is terribly short,and awkward looking.}
missing chem & math lecture will do my cold some good.
what a way to kickstart the schoolyear,with colds and red eyes
and fevers.daang
sickly sickly!
but ill be heading out tmmrs methinks!it has been so long.
P.S we had house compts tday,for captn's ball AND AQUILA ROCKED THE COURTS.
so many good players!like eirene for example,and super defender nat{?} and many more!
aquila you play like ......woooooooooh!
Sunday, January 21, 2007, 2:18 PM
the world needs a dash of happiness!
i can see it happening let me offer you this
bit of happiness
isn't it nice to know that your friends are doing okay
, 5:06 AM
my sweet just tumbled from my fingers tumbled from an area of floor to another
but it didn't crack!hooray. there's sticky juice inside so
the hard candy case just saved me a great deal of wiping.
.it's 441am ,too late for bed.how did all the time go,
when i reached home at 11plus?tv, phone, com.the mundane lives of stoned teens,
MY mundane life!whr hve the perks,the movies,the fun gone
am i becoming too tired for them?
definitely not.yet jc life is harsh.heavy workloads and
loong sch days dig my grave{as mentioned in prev post}
i'm not doing my work,not coping well so that has got to change,
i know that.lol.
when i'm starting to want to snap some photographs again,all semblance of inspiration evade me;[
my dA sites must work on alternate days or something.
to all parents,SafeSurf is not efficient lol boy am i glad it isn't
{why,it's a Starhub Maxonline free service aftrall}
_
this mightn't be what i want,but
undeniably,what i need
this feels a lot like peace.
, 5:04 AM
my sweet just tumbled from my fingers tumbled from an area of floor to another
but it didn't crack!hooray. there's sticky juice inside so
the hard candy case just saved me a great deal of wiping.
.it's 441am ,too late for bed.how did all the time go,
when i reached home at 11plus?tv, phone, com.the mundane lives of stoned teens,
MY mundane life!whr hve the perks,the movies,the fun gone
am i becoming too tired for them?
definitely not.yet jc life is harsh.heavy workloads and
loong sch days dig my grave{as mentioned in prev post}
i'm not doing my work,not coping well so that has got to change,
i know that.lol.
when i'm starting to want to snap some photographs again,all semblance of inspiration evade me;[
my dA sites must work on alternate days or something.
to all parents,SafeSurf is not efficient lol boy am i glad it isn't
{why,it's a Starhub Maxonline free service aftrall}
_
this mightn't be what i want,but
undeniably,what i need
this feels a lot like peace.
504 now.good morning
Wednesday, January 17, 2007, 10:53 PM
it was THE BIG BAD THING,but im waiting for it to end.
[btws im in dance and photog society
and so far photog>slack ,dance>killer.]
long school days dig my grave!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007, 11:34 PM
now now wipe these specks off my slate
you make me wnna start over
simply because youll stay as a part of me if i dont start over
fast
a painful tang.i wonder if this inability to let go is causing it
some moments it doesnt seem to hurt at all i wonder if im just willing myself
to be stronger than i am,against my will
_
my tagboard has been revived.aftr the really long much-deserved wait
really glad about that
awwfuck i just can't summon enough strength to feel now
those cliched entries i used to mock,
'hollow'
'so bitter it fills your senses'
'empty'
if this love has to be,then
be glad,and prove this love worthy.
let this go,live this life for sthg else
, 11:17 PM
The Artist
As an ISFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.
ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.
ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.
ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.
ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.
ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.
ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.
ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.
The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.
The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.
ISFPs are warmhearted, gentle people who take their commitments seriously, and seek lifelong relationships. They are very private people, who keep their true feelings and opinions reserved or hidden from others. This may cause them to constantly defer to their mates in their intimate relationships, which may cause problems if their mates are not extremely aware of the ISFP's feelings. Some ISFPs who are in the habit of not expressing their needs and feelings find themselves in situations throughout their life where they feel overshadowed, overlooked, or even "tread upon" by others. Highly practical and cynical by nature, these feelings may cause the ISFP to become bitter, and to either give up on their relationships, or to start using their relationships for their own personal gain. Although this problem is observed sometimes in the ISFP type, it does not seem to be present in those ISFPs who consistently express their feelings to those closest to them. These ISFPs have a very positive, warm outlook on life and love, and are not as likely to find themselves in relationships where they are taken for granted or taken advantage of. ISFPs go to great lengths to please their partners. They're very loyal and supportive, with a deep capacity for love. They detest conflict and discord, and highly value being seen and understood for who they are. They need space to live their lives in their own unique way, and will respect other's need for space.
ISPF Weaknesses.
Not good at long-range financial (or other) planning
Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism
Focused on enjoying the present moment, they may appear lazy or slow-moving at times
Need to have their own space, and dislike having it invaded
May be slow to show their affection with words
Tendency to hold back their thoughts and feelings, unless drawn out
Monday, January 15, 2007, 11:05 PM
凯- MEMBERS says:
haha
凯- MEMBERS says:
stop being emo and be happy
oh!captn my capt'n says:
im not emo.
oh!captn my capt'n says:
im incredibly SAD. {yes it has been long since anyone used it} and unhappy.
oh!captn my capt'n says:
lol.
_
How do you feel? that is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
how much is real
so much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start
.
never felt so shaken,as lost
as if my heart had been trampled upon without a thought or two
shamelessly i've lay it down again &
again
& again.
and yt yes .this? you deserve this.
the whole day has been spent with an invisible fist
settling beneath my throat.
i'm unwilling to show the huge huge mess i am right now,
such an impassive demeanour
it's hurting me so much..
but why?why this.why now why the fuck are you like this.
it feels like;
i want to point my finger at sthg,
somebody. you take charge. and you,be responsible for these hurts.
but i can't manage tht,not even that.
the world speaks no reason.my tears well up too often
but i refuse.
i refuse to.
to be frank ,do shed some light,
nothing makes sense anymore.
, 11:05 AM
凯- MEMBERS says:
haha
凯- MEMBERS says:
stop being emo and be happy
oh!captn my capt'n says:
im not emo.
oh!captn my capt'n says:
im incredibly SAD. {yes it has been long since anyone used it} and unhappy.
oh!captn my capt'n says:
lol.
_
How do you feel? that is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
how much is real
so much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start
.
never felt so shaken,as lost
as if my heart had been trampled upon without a thought or two
shamelessly i've lay it down again &
again
& again.
and yt yes .this? you deserve this.
the whole day has been spent with an invisible fist
settling beneath my throat.
i'm unwilling to show the huge huge mess i am right now,
such an impassive demeanour
it's hurting me so much..
but why?why this.why now why the fuck are you like this.
it feels like;
i want to point my finger at sthg,
somebody. you take charge. and you,be responsible for these hurts.
but i can't manage tht,not even that.
the world speaks no reason.my tears well up too often
but i refuse.
i refuse to.
to be frank ,do shed some light,
nothing makes sense anymore.
Monday, January 01, 2007, 12:59 AM
okay. time to resume normal posts.
it's a new year already{LOL i really need to stop this}
school's starting! and just now i was in tm looking for school shoes
mom actually intends to get me sthg non-school-shoe
im quite elated but gasp it's like spending
so much money cus sports shoes/shoes from adidas are costly. >;[
i saw this pair i looved but it's 109!HAHAH
& i'll be subjected to day of jumping from one dry place to another IF i get that pair.
&schoolbag gosh i need to get to bugis pronto
shd be getting sthg from thr
okay i need to stop flooding my blog space with incessant chattering.
hm!.
oh yes calanthea is hitting singapore really soon
so HI GIRLFY WE MISSED YOU!{waves arm off}
I NEED TO KNOW OLVL RESULTS.
IM WORRYING ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO GET INTO SAJC TOOO MUCH.
what if i score FRICKING FOURTEEN.
dammit.
, 12:49 AM
HAHAHA.SUDDENLY IM EXCITED ABOUT 2007!but even i think it's shortlived enthusiasm!
, 12:38 AM
is the new year a good thing?
YES?
lols turning sixteen and new year being in the same week
IS OVRWHELMING.
aand blogger isn't reacting fast enough lah.
i still hvta change the dates {each time i type a post}
from Dec to Jan
from 2006 to 2007
QUITE TORTUROUS!
, 12:14 AM
so weird. it is 2007 already?as expected, 2006 has crept past us steathily
and it has brought all the joys and pains a year further from all of us.
I AM GOING
TO ROCK
THIS
YEAR.but please dont mark my words LOLLS
i haven't the damned chance to even be nostalgic though
DIDNT EVEN BID 2006 GOODBYE!?
it's like BAAAM whaaaah you mean it's 2007 already
'whaaaah you mean it's 2007 already?!' were the actual words i said {okay,shouted} to my mom
when i heard the 'HAPPY NEW YRRRR SINGAPORE!!' shouts from the television.
i think it's better that way.
...cause. i don't let things go easily.
this time,the year has gone without me noticing.
it IS better this way.2006 has been not-that-shitty now that i give it some proper thought
it's retreating back is making me feel.
the only thought in my head now is 'please go without me noticing too.'
'oh please,just go'
why is it still you im emotionally inclined towards?
, 12:03 AM
i feel so old all of a sudden.:D
2006 is over,i'll be doing my recap, of course,
something everyone'd expect from a 31st December post,but i don't
remember hvg done a recap for my years ever.
if i haven't,this will be my first!.
this year i'd performed for Danceworks,&lost,met bastards like Shar {our Dance Choreographer/Tchr for Danceworks}
{he told SwanYee from Dance that me and him were an item BLAHBLAH,ditched me,we got back tgthr LOLLLL
he treated me nicely and stuff {offering me Toro's autograph was a uhmmm nice gesture}
AND I NVR KNEW the rubbish he said about US till Danceworks were around the corner.
it sounds retarded now,but he was a DANCE TEACHER to us then
i freaked and nvr unfreaked.the mere thought gives me the shudders even now}
Orientation 2006 was good,funnily, my confidence for Dance was built around it - not a solid structure to be built upon i must say
there's still so much to learn,ditch the laziness and go for more practicing in JC,
since i intend to dance again in JC if they'd allow me in the CCAs
so many firsts for this year.
the start of this year i've loved and lost,
in the middle of the year;loved and never owned.
he gave me the firm holds i could never shy from
yet i was already under a spell.a spell that should never be mentioned by moving lips,
almost a taboo.
a spell i'm been wanting to break,alongside the desire to be under this very same spell
i don't deserve to know about the shape i take from behind your eyes?
don't deserve to tell you about the spell i'm under
since a very long time ago?
i wonder if 2007 spells a different year altogether.if i can't ever tell you
i don't wish to spend a single second longer wanting to.
this year,
my gwenna had a sweet year with songhon{my best wishes,still! :D }
thr was this unsettled THING{dtknw how else to put it} btwn me &yongzhi that created a whole deal of unhappiness
it seems to hve blown over now,and i just dt ever want to lose the dear girl. <3
calanthea & i hve been spending a lot of time tgthr,and i just wish for calm hearts
calm hearts
family wise
we haven't been close,in fact we have been quite unlike a family
i just appreciate those special moments {becoming more often now} when we all flash grins
on our faces, on 2007 i really need to love them more,
and show my love more outwardly.
in january,{in fact, from january - august}
the importance of the big Os barely registered, despite 2006
being the year for our examinations. almost like an alarm clock,
soft ticking its way to that one loud sound
alongside everyone else,there was the chaotic scrambling for books.
scored a 9 in prelims,
a score so much better than that prepared for.
with a 9, i landed myself in VJC for the first 3 mths. it's gnna start on the 3rd jan
i sooo CAAN wait.
:D
SHIT IT IS 2007 ALREADY.
2006 have been such a shitty year i broke my toe and everything
but this year i've got to know janice weeho suwei more thru our saturdays at cal's!
and new lovely people like kingston jerlin kingston lian kai boontiong
and so many good things which have paled when put beside the shitty things
AAH . I HVNT FINISHED MY ENTRY YET!
but it's new year already.
AAAH!?!