OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Monday, July 31, 2006, 1:28 PM
'breathe on a mirror
until there's no one there' - from a book.
.pretty language makes the world a more
bearable place.
oooohkays im in a normal-post sort of mooode.
my eyes are hurting agn,right eye's
quuite red,but so far no signs of swelling,
so imma just drip the drops and rest tday &
it shd be fine.:)
yes and last night we had ahs 50th,esplanade concert
whooo not high at all.but it was rlllly pleasant to
watch people you knw perform
hahah.too bad that it was too late when we remembered about the flowers,
---'--(SUN
sorry sorry;but braavo!it was a good performance put up anyways:D
basically my evening was terrible.
thinking about it makes me wnna
hurrrl.im dejected at how i couldnt enjoy myself
i was looking forward to the concert so much,
then dreading its ATYOURFACE arrival recently,
and last night the 'shit i wnna be anywhere else but here' expression was
on perma-mode and i couldnt get rid of it..........
;\ !
but there were pros to it,most of those who were present were
dolled up and puuuurdy
except me and a few othrs maybe,i dressed down
yeahs so there was
eyecandy evrywhrrr hohos.
things got muchmuch better after i reached home though.:]
yeahs the monday blues aint getting to mee
_
some things ought to be looked over,
and then slowly diminish in importance
a reflection disappears when you breathe onto a mirror
LOLS this whole tray of ice just fell onto the ground and
broke into fragments in the kitchen.it sounded like a mini-explosion.
.___.
so i was just picking them up and they were melting in my fingers already.
it got me wondering what does it feel like to be in love with someone made of
ice,
the seconds drawn out as you hold them in your hands,your arms
the faster they seem to disappear ,your warmth their murderer
and in their absence they
leave a puddle of water so you needn't explain your tears
leave them in peace,alright.alright
Friday, July 28, 2006, 8:06 PM
at the time we met,someone just hugging me still felt like too much to bear
i didn't want anyone to get too close,nor to feel too much for me.
so this had been all i wanted,a boy whom i needn't care too much for,
for the thought of me barely lingered in his mind.
we'd walk quietly and pretend to be in love,
but deep inside of both of us we questioned each other.this all,had been what i wished for.
now,though,i sometimes wish for more.
yet,the desire to be swept off my feet by emotions like tidal waves is oddly unnecessary.
{this is something pretty different from
my pieces these days.
from chinatown.i hope yall will like:]
esp yzz since she's into b&w i hope she'll like this one.
}
Wednesday, July 26, 2006, 8:20 PM
i am about to speak words i was taught to never utter,listen to
the uncouth language of love where there are lips,but no sounds
wanting tirelessly to be free
a flight barely hindered by faults of man,
,i'm
an ebbing memory at the back of your head,
where childhood toys ,the shirt you loved wearing when you were five ,mother's friends' names
live with me.
youve forgotten the shirt's colour,youve forgotten how
you were like a paperback novel read aloud by me
this violence is electric,allow me to remember
you always
either that,or i'll have to forget we existed
and injuries of
my heart is my fault.andonlymine
Sunday, July 23, 2006, 9:16 PM
i don't wish to sleep alone,crumpling the sheets
in search of any last words; any fleeting warmth
that would flood my senses with
a picture perfect situation
, where you will be right next to me
counting the scars off my feet and
whisper comfortingly 'see see they are
wounds which have already healed'
, 3:52 AM
my favourite out of the entire shoot
i mean im uber excited
OKAY back to technical details if youre interested
evening light,
slight overexposure
..
.
.
.that's it!.
gosh this is keeping me awake
the overexposure turned the walls peachy
instead,my walls are this ugly shade of pink
the evening sun did magic too
overexposure like PHOTOG WISE.
and if you are going to nitpick about how my top
is riding up my back,please leave,
BECAUSE I'M NOT WELL VERSED AT PHOTOMANIPULATION SO
IT'S BEYOND MY ABILITIES TO EXTEND MY TOP UNTIL
IT REACHES LIKE MY ANKLES,FOOL.
you can't and have no right to
utter rubbish of any sort.
so i'm sounding peeved ALREADY{when i was all like whee i like this picture!}
but i'm just imagining
how it'd be like if some IDIOT GOES ALL LIKE,
'HEY YOU ARE SO SLUTTISH.WHY?BECAUSE I CAN SEE LIKE HALF OF YOUR BACK'
i can't deal,
so no entertaining of any like such.
uh......thanks.
, 3:34 AM
fullview pls
okay.the
very opposite of the previous two.
minimal post processing,
only underexposure done via PhotoShop
it was underexposed for a reason,i felt
that a non-harsh light can bring the best out of this,
besides,the blossom automatically draws attention.
i'm liking this more than the other two.
firstly i spent very little time,
secondly it gives me the calm before a storm feeling,
which i'm terrified of,but am addicted to.
i mean,how the . can things can stormier than they are now.<
that was a statement.it simply isn't possible.
, 3:26 AM
fe
heavy colour edits.
emofied hard core,i wasn't feeling at all alright.
and colours which stand out and drip pleases me.
Friday, July 21, 2006, 7:44 PM
done using a tripod
i'm venturing out of what i already know,
experimenting with colours less showy
and a composition i'm less familiar with{heart.}
she stumbled into my lawn of uncut grass yesterday,
posed she did,and told me about the boy whose hands she held
last summer ,she breathed in the absence of rain
some time afterwards i stood there watching
with shaking hands and tangled words
but miss don't you understand,i'm not a photographer
i can't take pictures,my heart was broken once,twice,thrice
i broke hearts,one,two,three
and i just can't do this anymore
'oh yes you can.'
she breathed peace and a warm sun soon shone its rays at me
the girl i was last summer{when was last summer?}
on my bed she slept and dreamt dreams the way i never dared
, 1:55 PM
this made me cry harder at first
when i was uploading this,i felt like even photography isn't for me
but afterwards the emohidebehindthecurtain look made me laugh
but the green sea with currents churning violently underneath
is still upsetting.but it's pretty.
, 1:43 PM
oh god i want i want i need i need
it's not the time to not feel together,
but i need to save me by myself
i need every single person
showing me the ways they lead nonchaotic lives,
i need this i need that too i need you,him,her too,
needing so much but yet i shan't have anything more
that has to do with the heart,somehow i can't
bring myself to say i'm not okay all the more the i can't
look you in your dry black eyes and show you pooling black eyes
can you sense this i could never guess things would get this intense.
before i forget to tell you,thank you everyone
my girlfs especially for being so strong and showing me it is possible
.for being faithful in your belief in me and before i forget,sorry for falling
and pulling at your arms,why,there's just so much weighing down.
i want out i want so desperately with every cell in me
but i can't,because even in the darkest moments i know
there will be an end to this.please please heal quick.
hah i won't die a melodramatic death,sprawled across the grimey carpeted floor
of some dingy hotel room.
with the flickering lamp swinging to the beat of someone's presence.
still,i feel incapable of answering calls,and smses today
don't worry,REALLY i've just gonna ride this out.
when you read this please take comfort in the fact that i'm just
victimized by the occasional bout of teenage angst.maybe.
tomorrow i will be better already because it is ahs's birthday.
when i sent you S.O.S yz i felt like i was going to die,
that my heart had a pistol in one of its arteries,sinister
about to shoot itself
but moodswings come and go.girls like me should go to bed and wake up
wanting to be alive.sleep will help my eyes hurt less too.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006, 8:30 PM
i wanted to ask you to run away
but you ran away too fast;too fast even for that.
before i could.
i wanted to ask you to come back
come back to me sweetheart cupcake baby sweetgums candydrops
but as usual you ran too far and too deep into the caverns of your own misery
to hear my cries,beckoning your return
gbyegbye.these cries have stopped for embraces will
never be given.
shit.such an emo pict lolol.
.uhs.
but i'm growing to like it.bit and bit and its emoness.
Sunday, July 16, 2006, 9:25 PM
tomorrow - the start of another meltdown
sugar fairy's torment.
Saturday, July 15, 2006, 6:41 PM
& i can't wait
i can't wait till youve lost me once
and for all
and for all days spent
a weeping mess of a girl,these days won't go away
it's okay because,i just won't show you this girl.
one month my ass.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006, 11:01 PM
Gwynneth,YongZhi and a bit of Cals
HOHOS.
softsoft focus,
very cross-processed film sort of greenish tones
the picture was overexposed when taken,
set at high exposure when facing the light,so i could get a dreamy sort of focus.
i think the square cropping did this justice
anyways,tell me if you like it<3
{and pretend you doo if you dont!.WHAHAHS}
actually i'm in quite a terrible mood,
aahs.but yeahs i feel slightly cheered up already..
sleeep.!
a whole new you i never will get to know.
, 6:35 PM
i love the glow the light gave in this picture.
hello,places of the earth i haven't seen,a palpable sense of expectation
hanging low in
the air going in and out of these lungs.
hell-oh isn't hell the place where we last met
,we took pictures of my unforgotten longings for you so i could
show you,
my photographs,our moments,they came out each more overexposed than the other.
but i don't feel the disappointment{which
usually comes only when
you take your hand away.}bitter bitter.
but but but i promise to become
the reincarnated living copy of Indifference,the only
difference between the copy and the real thing
lies in how - my version is simply
a facade.pretense.lie.
but i promise to become someone better with or without you,
without.
of course,
Saturday, July 08, 2006, 12:43 AM
are you all pieces of the sea?.fragmented waves of
pasts and presents mingling as one new whole - you simply mustnt exist,terror to the world,terror to me,almighty ocean.
i never felt like i hated to drown before,like tonight
if i save myself tomorrow,would you rather i
didn't.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006, 3:57 PM
trip me down memory lane
chinatoown.june hols
edit/:overall greenishness added
no cropping,composed when shot
reach out for an expanse of blue sky;open windows,
tearful smiles waiting to fall through;right through
Sunday, July 02, 2006, 1:06 AM
like sickly birds with
downy spotted feathers
we attempt to scale the wall with beatings of our clipped wings
one,two,
it never occured to us that your eyes,
three,four
your eyes,they were like the skies themselves.
we never made it across the wall,but
being able to hold on to you felt nothing
like defeat. this freedom we already own.
,five.
Saturday, July 01, 2006, 10:10 AM
please keep me in mind
ocean i delved into,many moons ago
salt is absent from these brackish waters,[can it be..?]
yet palpable in these veins from the inside of your lips.
until i see you again,find in your eyes
the answer;
will you stay by my side,mine alone
and will we never part
from ocean to sea,sea to lake
lakes where tearful goodbyes exist{happy july to you,
one whose face i can never remember}
that means love.
_
[edit]after clicking once on the photograph to view,
linger your cursor on the larger picture till this square appears,
then click on the square AGAIN to view it in its actual size.
in other words,two clicks.
{hearts.}
harsh details of the waves intended.[/edit]