OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Wednesday, February 28, 2007, 8:04 PM
it rained a lot tday.on my way back i saw a boy{older than me i think,about 18/19}, & he was sending his little sister {primary school} home! in the rain!.
SUUCH a sweet scene, i could barely take my eyes off 'em when we were crossing the road.where was MY older brother when i was in primary school?
hmm hahah i can't seem to recall now if i yearned for a older brother/protector when i was younger. anyhooo ,older brothers who're reading this ARE TO BE NICE TO YOUR YOUNGER SISTERS.girls like that kinda boys!{secret softies on the inside.}
i reached school at 12plus tday.__. math tutorial - it sounded ,to me,as if he was speaking greek. bio test tomorrow,what am i DOING online,heavens me
i m bored to death!ARR.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007, 4:45 AM
oh god it feels like forever,no one ever tells you forever looks like home,sitting all alone inside your head. }}SCHOOL TDAY.all i can remember is gelare.HAH which isn't part of schooool. but anyhooo, we went aftr school .i thought i was hungry enough to finish up Freshly Baked Waffle {Large} !actually i was,hahah. aand i did finish it,though t'was agony, swallowing the last few mouthfuls ;[ HUUGE waffle,$3.00 was well spent. {only on tuesdays}.
i'd advise you not to buy icecream with it,no one likes limp & soggy waffles and evryone wants to save $2.5! why didn't anyone advise me about it beforehand huh!.
my waffle was swimming in a pool of..water-cream within minutes. ha-ha this rocking sense of humour;]
hmm..my own pile of tutorials 're sky-high ,i may need to start on them. sue me if i'm not motivated to at all.{i'm not.} attempting to clear up work which 'll become non-existent in a week{?} doesn't make much sense to me. aah!better start revsn for bio test on thursday.__. i'll be skipping math test if thr's gnna be one but i'll take bio! hahah shoooot .d't rlly know how to study for enzymes.ARR my ass is surgically attachd to the computer swivel chair!
btw shoutout to yongzhi i hope your nerves 're less frazzled tday!gdness gracious, stress ovrload. lets try to go out on sunday or sthg if possible.
btw happy b'latd birthday,buzz!
tomorrow is wednesday.i'd hate to count, but it's ohsoobvious. 3 more days left in vj. i want to,but i just don't know how to spend the remaining time thr to the hilt.
thr is chem practical tomorrow.detest detest chem practical.
Monday, February 26, 2007, 7:24 AM
female teacher: given the resources technology provides, it wouldnt be too much i think to expect you students to find the e-version & read it online!
mr harris: GOOD GOD!
female teacher: seriously! i am appalled actually! at the number of people who haven't read the book yet!
mr harris: sit down,woman!
female teacher: {slightly flustered with a tinge of indignance} it really isn't too much for you to read the first few chapters!
mr harris: CALL THE SECURITY!
Sunday, February 25, 2007, 7:56 AM
ugleeeeh half-white layout
yz pls save me. .__.
i hate to feel so hurt, result, a hard hard heart.at times it's not like this.
simply put:the world looks prettier behind tears,you look prettier when you feel.
bright bright eyes. no giving in unless .. now,is that far away from now?
Friday, February 23, 2007, 8:34 AM
&if you will,i will,try to let it go.} holaa. as expected,the last day of the week passed quickly. {math lecture wasn't a torture,only bcus i played bingo with aaron on the steps throughout.we weren't even sitting on chairs heh heh i won both games!!i welcome competitors. :D } we had SEVUNNN breaks bfor p.e! we nearly counted the seconds just to pass time.but we ended up crashing musicfest audts .the bands had their turns tday. a few of em were alright, the rest didn't really strike an impression. ;[ p.e was arduous!. but a relief when t'was over.dance was intensive as hell, but that's the way it shd be.when dance was about to end, i was struck so hard by ..my inabilities?my fears? i can hardly tell anymore. the sky was darkening ,a burnt blue,yet i chose not to leave just yet as students made a slow trickle for the gate. i sat there watching the sky burn up in a watery blur, wondering about the expectations i hve for myself - then t'was all too clear - nothing at all. that must change, i can hardly stand it.
[whatre the reasons?why nothing at all?]
btw,knowing that cny performance happened a week ago is ..sad.
time may be passing too quickly,and i'm here grasping for the gone.
Thursday, February 22, 2007, 8:06 AM
there's school tomorrow -math lecture.
P.E tmmrs.
oh won't you try looking forward to them.
ARGH WTFFFF CRAP.ARGH.ARGH 'll hve to leave ANYWAY.
EFFED.UP.OLVLS.
i dread..dreading things.i d't want to leave
but i don't want to not want to leave.
ive been out walking
i don't do too much talking
these days, these days.
these days I seem to think a lot
about the things that I forgot to do
and all the times I had the chance to.
cus..dreams last so long
Saturday, February 17, 2007, 1:43 AM
audrey saboed darren AAAWW. Labels: camwhoring for the day
Thursday, February 15, 2007, 6:08 AM
did we really spend 2whole weeks on our cny routine?
dancing is so blessed
my antidote saves me from a buzz of thoughts
we're performing tmmr!exciting
& i hvnt nailed all steps yet.i fumble at at least 4diff movements LOL yknw that's quite a lot.
.__. okay since when did i fuss so much hmm
my first and only performance in vjc.aaww thr IS a need to feel nostalgic lah.
aftr this,
dance practices are not going to be as frequent,& i'll rlly miss the whole
we-re-preparing-for-an-item feeling.
i guess thr'll always be stuff/activities to keep me busy
still,i'll miss dance practices luhh.
the seniors made a good point.tmmrs will be vjdance's first performance in 2oo7
we HVE to be spectacular to create a good image..i doubt we'll be but we can trrrry
oh .yes JAE ended.
i d't feel undecisive, b'cus my score does not allow
too much of a choice,but i'm not DEPRESSED and MOPEY,thanks to y'all and sheer will, i think.
<33i'm fearing that i d't get my first choice.
plus,it's so hard to bid veeeejaycee farewell (for good).ouuch
okay point made,right?
EVRYONE shd pon their sch tmmrs ,juust to crash vj to watch our vjCNY celebration
{hahah}
Sunday, February 11, 2007, 2:04 AM
14points is not alright.
i shouldn't be not-alright,just because i got a not-alright score.
i'm less weepy tday..though it hurts,still.but
i feel so loved,thank you
my girlfs for being thr when i couldn't stem the tears
my parents,and my relatives/family for being so forgiving and understanding
harris for saying cheers!
dennis for the 'inspirational' talks on msn!so.touuuching.<3
cheekeen & daniel for attempting to hve me snapped out of this
junyuan for asking me not to cry
yini for hugging me in the hall!and constantly worrying for me
sherwin for being comforting
sharon for the lovee and typing of the loong comment which i found so touching.i'm sorry you feel the same girl,now now..d't you doubt!<3
linsu for attempting to contact me ,to comfort me about results with lame stuupid stuff he does
hejun for being so concerned
liankai for smsing me comforting msges{i.e. how he'll be schmates with me in sajc if vj doesnt want him.__. heheh}
dance juniors {yaya} for leaving me a friendstr testi regarding results
qiangsen for asking me to be strong,for i am sixteen yrs ol already
vjdance senior minli who bothered enough to msg for results
kingston who loved me enough to say i love you i love you and comment longlong comment!.thanks for being HERE king,it means a lot.
did i leave anyone's name out.
EVRYONE WHO LOVES ME.eeyer i love y'all.
my new classmates for ohsocuute s33 for being so encouraging and concerned,for wanting me to stay on in vj.
darren promised me a memorable 3wks if that's all i hve left!
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j.t.s. was greaat tday,so much laughter.
occasionally i teared a little when sm talk about how i shd 'really really try to appeal'
they actually want me to stay,i'm glad for tht<3
i'll ask. if appeal/dance appeal is unlikely to work for 14,i can't..
i'll just hve to try my best to get into sajc.
AWSHUCKS i'll nvr forget s33,thr'll nvr be a class like them.i'll miss them so much.
i missed reunion dinner too,for the first time in my life.;[
olevels was a failure.but that's over..LIFE GOES ON.
jc life is gnna be so hectic it'll take my mind off it.
i should get up already.in a while.very soooon love<3
Saturday, February 10, 2007, 2:48 AM
okay i was rereading what i posted and i disliked what i saw;an entry with so much restraint
yes,i am currently feeling utter despondency
my results suck,the suckiness of it is very real to me.
watching my l1r5 fall a heartwrenching height of 5points is killing me.
here's honesty - i hate it.due to it i think i suck,and
that i am intellectually incompetent,and that i disappoint every one who
matters in my life.
(many many people).
yep,that's right. despite all words,i can't pick myself up.
i am stuck in a rut,i can't get out,i don't know if i'm even trying.
i only have myself to blame,and that's what i'm doing.
most importantly i know this isn't permanent.i wish
with all my heart to move on ,move away from here.
mrs g said 'hey it's yiting,she knows better!she'll pick herself up and move on,stronger than that
that's yiting'
heavens lah i'm about to cry again i think,although i want very much to be
the girl she said i was
i think she may be right.
, 2:01 AM
where had all the strength gone
here,have my heart y'all i really am grateful to all who offered
words of comfort,and care. sincere congratulations too to those who did well.:)
though i didn't answer all calls didn't reply all msges due to bursts of misery
i do feel this certain
warmth thanks to sweet people .aw..thanks.
it really hurts like crap.hurts beyond my pain limit
yiting,i really fail to comprehend this time.
wht is going to happen to me?
Friday, February 09, 2007, 12:15 AM
when i was bathing i had so many thoughts,
so many things i wanted to say{but afraid i mightn't,due to time contraints} before i know my olvl score
it has happened._. my class o7s33
they're so frickn cute i might just
adore them so much, i'll feel really sad if i score 14 or sm other shit score.
it has been like what,about a mere month?
& a whirlwind of things
had happened,almost like we wanted to make the most out of the little time
we hve bfor second intake.
i'm being more emotional than i ought to be..
but.did i seriously think i can be in a place for a month and not feel emotionally
attached to it?honestly i didn't want to.
cus being emotionally attached would result in this
{limelight shines onto pathetic self}
most are adorable and sweet and a hilarious group to be with.
even Dance is fab so far.the girls and two boys are serious when it comes to
getting a routine tight,
and sound.most seniors are forgiving and caring ,patient too.
seniors are fantastic dancers. j1s are good themselves.
academic-wise,i feel like we're placed under a lot of stress..yep
okayokay it's for our own good,
maybe leaving aint a bad thing.
maybe i can't cope with such a quick pace of learning.
well i thought i can't deal with bio ,stupid content heavy subject,
but i found out tday that i topped my class for sm bio test and
thr're sm 6-pointers in my class and geniuses{LIKE DARREN LOL} too,{9 is probably one of the lowest}
aiya.whatever,
well oh well
yiting in the end youre just.not.good.enough.lah.
okay this is starting to get depressing.it disgusts me too that
you hve to read me like this
but.
..cut me some slack.
this is when i need smone i can entrust matters to..sm god.
i mean, if i hve that,
at the very least i'll know,wherevr i end up is the best choice for me.
sajc!if i can't make it into vj,{look at how my priorities have changed
lol.and STILL i am not too sure about vj too}
sajc i hope i can make it to sajc.I PRAY for acceptance on my part,
that i may come to terms with my results eventually,if ever,{because it's so
dammit lifechanging .} i pray that life in my new school'll be awesome,
and i'll gain a new perspective about schlife all over again.and meet different people
take things in my stride and pick myself up,here comes change.even change has changed its form.take things in my stride..and pick myself up quickly.
i am still excited about sajjj.but i'm VERY tentative ,
now that it involves more change,
inevitable though.
HEAVENS, i don't know anymore.
whatever it is,may i please own the courage to take it in my stride
good luck to all!
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Monday, February 05, 2007, 5:39 AM
am i not pretty enough is really a lovely listen yongzhi<3
..results are coming out on friday.
like jinghui,i refuse to aaaah!?! {scream} about it.
it's a dreadful feeling though,
and i'm weighed down mighty by it.
echoes of old voices do they reach you now?
are they trying?when you were my world
, the stars flickered violently. no?
the lights in my heart went out more than once
here,have the shards i pocketed in the dark.
Labels: results
Sunday, February 04, 2007, 2:47 AM
one day youll dance for me,
spin into a fleece of pink woolcandy,
offer your home,the hiding places which kept you safe
take me there and offer to keep me safe too
i need to take photographs!
hahaha.dance practices have been killer.
but it feels good to dance.because dancing takes your mind off things
and of course,i like dancing.for no reason at all
it is february already.they say february is the month of love.