OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Thursday, May 31, 2007, 5:58 PM
peeeekture post :my bestie forever jerlin suzelin and i (ding ding) am the B.F.F of this emo punk rock asshole!
ays woe is me! we both couldnt find his backpack and my skinnies ;(
Wednesday, May 30, 2007, 4:26 PM
Can't be getting mad,
What you mad?
Can't handle that?
zomg i need to be freed of sthg lehz.i need to dance LEHZ.
fuck these moodswings which hit with torrents of vituperation.
vulgar lehz.hahahahahahahh i need to leave the house.
i had the most filling buffet lunch thingey just now. well,
BYE.OFF TO JACK'S BDAY WITH DANCE MATIEZ.i mean, if you can't dance,
then chill with dance matez.
yeah i know,'chill!' i think ive been hearing too much!
what if i,made you cry
CIARA-LIKE A BOY
Friday, May 25, 2007, 11:28 PM
my fire starter's screwed,
i can't heat up my dinner with it later. so mummy suggested a lighter,but i refussse , i burned the hair on my fingers the last time i tried lighting a stove with the lighter ,so mummy suggested 'a birthday candle then'.
A CANDLE A CANDLE in all seriousness
i suggested yknw,fire sparklers
she calls me crazy,so i'm lighting the stove with a candle tonight.
im running late! i will not spend pretty saturdays at home,whiling time away,FOR FEAR OF THOUGHTS.
& i had the strangest dream last night,SO DAMN REAL TOO ! though i was strangely neutral, i 'm glad ,i'm blessed that it's,like all dreams, far from real.
it's mummy's bday tmmr!
Thursday, May 24, 2007, 4:45 PM
this is aaron & OMG ive a picture in which i kinda look like him!HAHAHA RETARDED FACE OF RETARDED PERSON MOI.ignore; you must!
but the shorts.are. love. material girl mine mine minee (not so soon though!)
i could tell you his favourite colour's green
he loves to argue born on the seventeenth
his sister's beautiful,he has his father's eyes
if you asked me if i loved him,i'd lie
yumyum song,i like. I'd Lie - Taylor Swift
general paper was ..retarded.i 'm retarded.
my sentences were all choppy, monotony was the only constant
.no heart, no heart. LITERATURE TMMRS.
HELLO, are you reading this,i miss mah girlfs.I MISS Y'ALL.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007, 11:23 PM
but I don't trust
the world to turn for me, because you see,
the map eventually ends, and it's up to us
to draw the rest of it, off the paper
and onto the table, across the kitchen and into the next room,
then the seas.
I'm not the kind of girl that finds what she needs by the end of the story.
Find home soon,alright? Find me.
i'm alright!{and incredibly silly} ']
it's not right anymore to be anything but fine.fine &'dandyy
but. gp is not okay.
far from okay ,ZOE MY GOD.
let the holidays come already! ;(((
junes will be the hottest.
, 8:57 PM
I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And
I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you ask me if I love him,
I’d lie
He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let no body see him wishing he was mine
He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breath for you...
He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
Yes I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him
I’d lie
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
GP'S A GONER!
so is lit!
, 4:48 PM
i'm two quarters and a heart down
and i don’t want to forget
how your voice sounds
these words are all i have
so i write them
so you need them just to get by
;& all the roads we have to walk along are winding
&all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Tuesday, May 22, 2007, 7:42 PM
I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth
thisss isss the lasstt tiimmi abaaannnddon uuuuuuuuuuu
hihello i'm still me, &&& i'll always be, d't forget that things hasn't changed.(though it's too late to be saying these)
ill be hoping silly-ly for a while .WRY LAUGH,zomgg calantheaaa how did i get myself into this !it's baffling, well.
i'm here now anyways ..and i just cant i can't think about anyone else.
this is the hardest story
that i've ever told, no hope no love no glory happy endings' gone forever more
yiting's ay freak!YUMYUM. okay back to othello,
the Moor,the black ram, valiant defender of Cyprus.BLAH
violently the stars flickered when you were my world.
i was told to have heart,but missing you's been nthg less than hellish
, 2:31 PM
zommmg im sick of seeing spamtags.i have unintentionally incurred the wrath of sm website it seems.
;(
sch tday was ohsoponnable
hahah still, midyrs are IN YOUR FACE. thinking caps+reading glasses check!
hope for gp &lit has diminished to nthg,i 'm not fretting yet. that's bad
time to start flipping my Othello book.
you have to remember this
Sunday, May 20, 2007, 11:33 PM
your bright mark is all i see,all i see - even when day comes.these are your feet ,they walked their way into, & out of, many hearts
hihihihihellohi!
im going to school tomorrow.
SURPRISESURPRISE(seriously)
{i 'm going to start talking photos agn in june hols.are you feelin' the heat!
i wonder how theyll turn out to be.i 'll hate and love i think - well expect to see yourself all over them anyway}
Saturday, May 19, 2007, 9:39 PM
now that things'rnt the same, i can hardly stand looking into the mirror to see the same girl....not when im painfully aware of the changes that made me un-same. i loved the girl i became when you were around, i mean that. weell forgive my {silly} way of 'moving on, & away' - by making slight ripples on the surface. look ,ma! ive got chingchong bangs!
will calanthea &nic come back from tuition already!!
GRRAHR >;(
{hahah disclaimer!: i sound moodier than i actually am.}
, 5:01 PM
marcus's birthday we bought him a okay-cake ,along with a smashing bday card.he loooved it!i heard only happy people camwhore.
:)
yknw.every time it's over,
i cut my hair!
, 3:21 AM
are you happy now?if yes,why? if no,how come?
EVRYONE,do feel obligated to answer me via tagboarddd
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a glimpse of happiness and i'm on my knees,
Thursday, May 17, 2007, 11:19 PM
my brother's a changed boy,it has been so long
since we had last looked at each other/conversed properly.this not-within-our-control thing is getting on my nerves. i just hope it ain't too late.zomg this year, my family had to fill up the little remaining time
i hve left from school,dance,friends,& self. priorities are mess'd up, yo ;(
am i less of the primary school girl who chased after the class 'bully' around class in order to pummel him with the little strength i hve/by throwing chairs? {the same guy i crushed on ,actually}. in secondary 1, feeling {a terribly false sense of}glam in a horrifying combination of black tops,long black skirts, black shoes was too easy. secondary 3,4 , the girl who felt defeated most of the time, the bestfriend of 3bestfriends.
j1 is baffling, evryone seems to be making me up as i meet them. there is this new strength i ve found,empowered by dance?maybeee. i started the year being happy, then sad, then i was happy again!now i'm sad.
TSK! i'd like to be happier, make me a happier girl ;(
ive changed, im reckless now
{hush, you know youll be safe here.}
Wednesday, May 16, 2007, 11:11 PM
yes pras,i landed hard,all for one shooting star!
bright, lasts no longer than an instant
yet its bright mark is all you see, all you see,even
when day comes
yknw when i feel like screaming/pulling at my hair i tend to blog i hate it cus an image of me being like this ALL THE TIME is created in your heads
well that's just too bad!
i need to sleeep.
when things 're bad,they can only get worse!
IT'S JUST LIKE ......youve spent the past two hours lying on the highway....
...voila, why, who'd hve expected it to be peak hour!!
ALALALALAA
i need dance back in my life pronto,probably nega feelings'll wreck less damage once we start moving.reggae w mabel once we compare timetables!
Monday, May 14, 2007, 11:46 PM
i just wasted a lot cal's & nick's timeeee
;(
sorry for being an annoying twat at 11plus pm of a tiring day
but thanks very much the both of you,mug hard for chem tests!LOVE.
btws i haven't forgotten that im a lesbo nun so calanthea youre still mine for the snatching!!!;}
heh heh heh
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showtime.
good luck to vjchoir!<3
Sunday, May 13, 2007, 10:06 PM
can't deny it,
my faith's on an alltimelow.
ooooh btw -
who's Someone?i appreciate all that concern,rly,
but i 've a thing(a bad one) for anonymous taggers.do leave your name the next time you pop by
__
like peterman or superman you ll come to save me
i thought i wouldn't be susceptible to such blaaahmisery anymore MANS.
i let my guard down ,yes,but hve you thought about whywhy?
_
THR'S SCHOOL TMMRS.two point four OH,LAWL! i'd expect to be completely spent
like, halfway through.
im so damn tempted to pon lit lect but i ponn'd the previous one alr!
{lit lect happens like once evry two weeks.HAHAHA
you go,tingo!}
, 9:13 PM
There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
Lyrics
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another
Saturday, May 12, 2007, 10:44 PM
hahah i thought about s33 when i saw this, so i braved all weird looks just for this picture of the ezlink card machine THREETHREETHREE.
cusssssss i'm like,so whatever, you could do so much better, i think y'all shd get tgthr now (youre so fine i want you mine youre so delicious i think about you all the time youre so addictive.d'tya know what i can do to make you feel alraaaiight) cj dance tighttight<3i can't help being bored by gp!! ;( paaaaas!girlfs i need more more more pictures of us >;( misses.
, 10:10 AM
boy , why you trippin' like that?
weird spam sites' rly gtta stop tagging.;(
say 'aah', it's time for your daily dose of emo!
Friday, May 11, 2007, 9:32 PM
:(
IM SICK OF EMO SAD,INDIEROCK,EMO,EMO EMO SONGS.
i like laughing at how i 'm(ridiculously) listening to Riding Dirty now
:)
trippin', boy
oh boy youre trippin'
, 7:58 PM
HELLO EMO ELMOS!
2nd-floor-fareasted w/ paas just now, &material eyecandies' my new found loove(always hve been!).
thr wasnt dance,;[ im sad that thr wasn't dance!
i still feel like disappearing.i feel
like
disappearing.i still feel like disappearing
i still feel like disappearing.i still feel like disappearing.
all it takes is for you to ponder if i've gone
but it's not time yet i feel,i feel like i 've disappeared.
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EDIT:// IM GETTING BETTER AT FIGHTING THE FUTURE! }
okay despite how ive been feeling sofricknblah , emo elmo's juuust not the way to go.
i 'm getting better at fighting the future.
SORRY FOR THE DAOS, EVRYONE.
(most)msges sent from 7:58PM onwards shall be replied to.
:D
vj choir concert at esplanade on tues ,s33-ers!
tell me if youre going so i can look you up that day for a bitta lovin' &squealin'
and pictures of cus, im so afraid to forget your faces<3
<3
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Tell me that you're alright
yeah everything is alright.
oh please tell me that you're alright.
yeah everything is alright.
im alright!ARE Y'ALL////// :O
Thursday, May 10, 2007, 12:12 AM
it's like fuck it ,how do i disappear rly quick?fingers in your faces,laughing crying so hard it'll stop you in your tracks,where have i gone now, what have i become? thanks to a coupla you,my very breaths feel so much like taboo.your claims are the loudest, ARR can this be - i think im moving, but im going nowhere - - - -
uhh yeah for starters, you can save me by not saving me. :)
bythewaay stupid webby spammer tags are starting to annoy me!
Monday, May 07, 2007, 8:33 PM
rachie says:awkward positions,hurry!
{poor rachie has been cut off from these pictures due to my bitchyskinny layout
hahah click on piccies to view it biig and see her!}
suckfaace. the distressed,the discontented,the mortified.lovelove blue nuns who make schooling in blue nunnery so much easier:]
Sunday, May 06, 2007, 2:31 AM
i want to feel safe.
alarm bells a-ringing
suddenly
i 'm currently wondering why im posting ,cus it's not like
okay.blah. blah blah......................but i'm scared, and it's late.
it's all i want now,i wnna feel safe so bad.
Thursday, May 03, 2007, 8:52 PM
lyrical hiphop is thaa seks
but SO VERY DIFFICULT TO DO.
my actions feel so retarded and spastic,i hardly look at my own reflection
in fear of laughing out loud at myself - now, that wouldn't come off as very sane!
;(
HAHA
but it looks ultimate cool, undoubtedly a style i'd lovelove to embrace :}
practise hard, dancers<3 uhhhh we might look decent in a few weeks!
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it's like someone has hit the slow-mo button,
my life's a winding river ,lateral erosion 's more dominant than vertical erosion
whatever!
girlf girlfs we shd head out soon.MISSES.
(and yes calanthea, nick is prohibited from appearing with you!)
haaaaha kidding.MISSES!
Tuesday, May 01, 2007, 6:12 AM
'listen up y'all, cus this is it.' d't ask me why that line from Fergalicious is here,
i don't know why that line from Fergalicious is here.
but thr's dance tomorrow :)
because i feel so insane and so alive?
on the contrary, here's to incoherent ramblings in a blog.
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hello, i wish so much for you to be happier. we're sick of shaping up to tiresome paper dreams
i have so much more to give.
i'm sad, cus friendships mean much more than you think. from the way you walk away,im forced to
see that friendships pale when put alongside ..other things.
:(
though i understand that immense hurt is wht which has driven you away,not the lacklustre of friendships. i do. it's just..argh.
, 1:41 AM
Is it dark enough?can you see me? do you want me? can you reach me? i've been treated so wrong
so long as if i'm becoming untouchable i have a prophecy
threatening to spill into words ,this growing certainty of over .Ouch, I have lost myself again,lost myself and i am nowhere to be found..yeah i think i might break ,lost myself again &i feel unsafe
MAY i be anchored ,never to be found.