OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Saturday, February 26, 2005, 9:51 PM
ohh my love
my darling
i'av hungered for your touch
fancy startin an entry tht way
lmaoo
tis a nice song btw
hmms watch -ghost
quite a classic
i watched white noise w/ zl just now..
not exactly very nice
but ohh, it was sad..
[oh it was sad when the big ship went down to the bottom and the husbands and wifes
and the children lost their lives
it was sad when e big ship went down]
LOLS tht didnt happen in white noise
dorts it's a campsong!!
singalong
hvn bathed yet. contact lenses r rottin in my eyes
;\ byebye.
Thursday, February 24, 2005, 10:22 PM
my mouse has been robbed of its mousepad
naughty naughty ezekiel xP
still so adorable nonetheless
lols there is dance tomorrow.
damn i need some time to adjust to the friday-got-dance-.monday-also-have-ah,-remember-horr
goodness me. im still sufferin frm the previous practice
lousy muscle aches =\nvmm monday i no need go dance... lols i'av got the sec3 higher chinese
go-to-drink-tea thingey.
doesnt sound lyk much fun
but whatevur.
beats havin to dance syf!! BWHAHAHKS
ooh-woo-ooh-wooo-woo-wooo
LOLS tht's e sad sound ezekiel makes when he's
sad.
DORRRR.
seriously it sounds so cute
ooh-woooo ;DD
im dreading
&i cant wait to go skl tomors.
HAA nothin much, but just feel lyk bein in class
but im dreadin e lessons.
esp CHEMMM
omgawwd
which reminds me.
im such a free person, thts y i come online so often
blahhh.
&it's not lyk i have nothin to do,
am just lazy.
=\\ BAHH.
teedees shall busy myself with more stuff.
i wna take up electric guitar
HAHHAHAHAHA
ok dont tell me it's not realistic i'll slap ur face a hundred tyms
until it becomes a da bao
&tht saves me e trouble of goin to canteen durin recess
;DD
i dont really lyk to eat baos btw.
i feel lyk im forgettin him........................................
then again maybe not.
________________________________________________
thank you fir for you &ur rejuvenatin talks
;D
thanku soo much
for always managin to lift my spirits
Tuesday, February 22, 2005, 11:22 AM
between us are voids so ghastly vast
today was a crazy day
lols i went to skl
had flag raisin in hall due to e guide &scouts
yini &i got caught by peach for talkin to each other
he was DAMN xiong
DAMNNNN angry
lols dknow whyyyy
sighhs then we kena called out to stand der
damn paisehh. ok we must learn to shut up
hehhs tht's highly impossible.
8pm we were out of hall.
8.15 i hadta leave class for dance syf rehearsal in kallang theatre
they booked it, payin thousand over bucks
we counted, one minute costing 5BUCKS
what e hell
haha i forgot to bring my excuse letter
then valerie hadta come my class to save me
;DD
thanks
yeahh dance was tiring
we came back at arnd 2pm
i was in tym for half of geog
hehee acty we were told tht we can dont attend if we want
but i so STUDIOUSSS
cannot pon maa.
ended up slpin durin geog. darn tired...
aftawards i acty went for YF
cosh of minyi lorrs
HAHAHAH
ya then watch bball match.
tadaas.
Thursday, February 17, 2005, 10:31 PM
;yellowcard- --gifts &curses-
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
________________________________________________________________________
END.
my start._______________________________________
like a tap screwed on tight
still dripping fat drops with flecks
of rust, drip drop dripdrop drip drip drop
drip like blood found
in our tears; drip-drops falling with hynotising quality
gaining speed &in amount, even
as they slip past the smattering of freckles on your
cheeks in shades of the warmest browns
,leaving at their heels branched-out trails of salt
to remind us
we are sad
people with fake CLOWN-LIKE smiles painted over pursed lips [}the stark red so bright your freckles fade in comparison /from a mile away,
i cant really see}
with bouts of terse laughter bubbling over
escaping through gaping holes
widening between our teeth {abysses where i can fit in the things i didnt say to you
&off our tongues, rolling
probably like how ugly nails &fingers hesitate
to rest on the keyboard.
to realize too late there shouldn't have
been anything to say.
_______________________________________________________________
to draw the lines we need something straight.
don't mind if i ask you how .we'av got nothing left
thanks for all e attention &comfortin words given in the tagboard
lols yeahh i cant go on like this
so despondent
i'll walk on whatever way which is given to me
blindfolded so i wont slow down
much <33 to all, i know it's hard to put up with my rubbish,
<3toyouss.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005, 8:10 PM
"Unwritten"
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah
ya it's a nice song.
im feelin so fucked up la
fucked up laa
anything
i hv a chi test tomors which i hvn finished muggin for
i HAD to look at e photograph and listen to 'Only One'
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
&cry.
what the hell is wrong with me
im just a pathetic excuse of a human
im runnin out of time and yet stupid stuff
still bother me
Monday, February 14, 2005, 11:27 PM
my ladeedums
i'av got tuition leiis wtfffffffffffffffffffffffff tuition on vday.
no like i had any plans la
but still.
cant even gimme enough tym to mope about,
gee.zus
sad sad day
SAD SAD DAY
i got a heart w/ hands pillow frm zl &SOME PHOTOGRAPHS.
alamak
tht photograph.. i can nv receive a better valentine's present
hahah pretty apt.
i got a bag frm val
a bracelet frm serene
&a necklace.
thanks my frens
today i spent v.day w/ zl+val
sighhs
i smsed him to wish him a happy vday this mornin &he didnt reply
hell.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY WURL
I HOPE YALL HAD FUN.
&WERE HAPPY TODAY.
gdnyt.
Saturday, February 12, 2005, 12:01 AM
i'av been v.day shoppin just now
lols.
i still dun rilly know wot to buy..
alamakk. =haha val zl serene bot lerrs
e pressure is on
;))
it still hurts seein his msn nicks
lols he's living his life
to the fullest, even
&im wastin mine away
he sounds like he's happy. im selfish..
by hurting.
lols if i truly l him den
i shud feel happy tht he's happy what.
alamaakk...
feelin like blended pork.
;he confirm happy de ma. he sad for what.
got nothin to be sad abt anwss
who knows hurrs..
lmaoo..
but i think i'll be sadder if he's not happy
then again.
i'll be less jealous.
how he gets on so easily
wtf laa. wot nonsense am i tokin bout.
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i'av just read my cousin's blog
shite it's so saddenin.
i really wna be happier
im not even tryin =\ahaha i suddenly hv an urge to talk to
this guy frm my class
omgawd im goin nutters
@=)
just norm. chitchat laa.
lols i used to hv many close guy frens
now one also dun hv
wei theng has drifted so faraway lerrs
burdened wit his own problems
sumtyms i also dknow how to go &tok to him
hope he feels betta soon enough tho
then i'll go ka-jiao him
teedees
;DD
tomors goin hse-visitin again
takin mrt to bukit batok
visit one hse ler then take mrt to chua chu kang
then take lrt to bangkit.
then walk.
then die of sianess.
Wednesday, February 09, 2005, 1:48 AM
CNY celebration was not bad
sad to just sit there and watch ppl perform tho
sighhs whatevur
haha
those who performed worked veh hard la
keep seein em stay back for practices.. haha
they did well
lols i watched constantine
with gwyn, yz, yini, sherwin
just now!!!
we went all the way to plaza sing
at e mrt station there got this bunch of tourists la
frm china de
ask us how to go 'carrefour' in chi
lols forgot how to spell
in hanyu pinyin it's 'jia le fu'
then it totally slipped my mind tht p.s. got carrefour
we went to tell em they got off at the wrong station
said tht they shud hv gotten off at city hall
suntec there got big big carrefour.
then the space outside d cinema was packeddd
this woman was like
reading off the list
'constantine, 11.15, 12.20, 1.30 BLAHBLAH SOLD OUTTTTTTTTTT
i was positive that i heard an evil chuckle between her announcements
lols gloating pigs =we booked our tix thru the axn online machine
at marina sq 1.30
hahahahr
LOLS IN THE END AFTER EATIN AT BURGER KING YZ SAID SHE SAW
THE CHINESE TOURISTS
THERE
i didnt getta see =we ran away fast lyk shite.. lols paisehh ma.
damn stupid.
hahahahahah
constantine rocks.
i understood the whole movie
so exciting
HAHAHAH
lmao gwyn+sherwin kept askin us abt parts of the movie
twas nice la
brimming with sarcasm and irony..
hahah. <33 keanu reeves he da man.
afta everything ended i made my way to tanjong pagar
grandpa's hse
for reunion dnr X)))
damn tiring.
i had pretty much fun today
we must do this more often
;DD
late late latee
tomorsh will be darn busy day
buhbs.
Monday, February 07, 2005, 8:38 PM
a week
from now would be a.day
b.day?
c.day.
go on...
phone me up when you reach the letter 'v'
on V.days
i'd just pull someone
too close and cling onto my life-buoy
a flash of white+orange between blue tides
just for 24 hours, i'd say
i'll plead, i'll bribe you with sweets
anyone...
just to show him i'av moved on
like how he did
just a short pretense, curtainned show to entertain
coupled souls
to tuck loneliness back into the red folds
waxed floors for easier deception
a single spotlight trained on my tears
dried by now, by the cold winds you blow my way
i'll place you right in the fuggin front row
'two seats please, another for HER'
with matching daggers as your eyes {{where have your eyes gone?
encrusted with the sharpest gems
of course, i expected company.
'i'll dance with him,' i swore
with crossed fingers studded with rings
crossed TOES in my showy flats
you didnt even
pretend to care
you
you
you
scoffed at the display on stage
flicked some hair off her face
you.
this misery will last only 24hours
&a lifetime more
boys like me and girls like you
only last for 24hours
1day of 1year
we'll wait till night breaks into a powder puff of glittery specks
_____the next day.
pray tell
couples will roam the streets no longer
{where have your pretty eyes gone?
one word,
i'll fetch em for you
&oh, i'll put em on
just to see the things you see
just to see how beautiful she is
Sunday, February 06, 2005, 7:23 PM
sometimes i forget to tune out
familiar chords in deadly waves
will frolick into our ears
gleefully as they chomp on our nerve endings
-till we feel this pain no more.. till i feel nothing no more
hot damn, you thought as you start to recall
that song
that song always triggered your fears {{always
-i miss you
'catching things and eating their insides'
tell me what's it like to hear your smile
watch your voice
colour love on your freckled skin
i can see corny flying hearts
i believe they were pink
constantly flapping their glued-on wings
through that piece of glass between us
that was no barrier
i received them i received them
anxious smiles to my way to see if i did
I DID. I DIDDD.
'like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason'
hear your smile as i ruffle your hair
watch your voice and hear your smile
pushed my head off my neck so i couldnt think
so long i'av been watching,
looking out for an opening
unstitched bit in a sack
a temporary glitch in your defense mechanism
there aint no place where i could
stick my hands in and work some magic
no need to mutter my spells and eat dried herbs by the river
disappointment died like a cupped hands over my whisper
youletmein
you let me in
of your own accord. like telephone wires around my neck
like how they wind around me tightly
of THEIR own will
sometimes we're just too scared
we hide in oil-stained couches
to type in our mobile phones
jab in some numbers
to share one more bit of your life i didnt know
i didnt get to know everything
no more time
'will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
stop this pain tonight'
this marks the end of my short-lived hiatus.
sounds impractical.. but..
enjoy
Thursday, February 03, 2005, 8:17 PM
thanks fir.
i need a break.
so.. im on hiatus till im not.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005, 8:09 PM
1st February 2005..
yesterday.
a new start?
youareonlineandwehavenothingtosay
nothingtosay
hmmms
im tired of the dry eyes
of pushing my hair back
to be in place
im tired of trying so hard
sick of being in place
watching my words, watch where they hit
tired of turning around
¬ see people
im desperate to see
tired of seeing everyone listen
but not one understands
i cant believe it. NOT ONE UNDERSTANDS.
a couple tried to.
im being too harsh
I DONT UNDERSTAND it MYSELF
how can anyone else.?
they tell me it's been too long for me to be still moping
still be crying
it's been long
too long ago i should have stopped
moping
well i dont have it in me
damn, im not too sorry
i should have, but i didnt
do
what you have expected of me...
Strong will.
why dont i have it in me
whywhywhy.
im so mad at everyone..