OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Sunday, August 29, 2004, 9:01 PM
2ND ENTRY FOR TODAY____
A LIL TOO MUCH.
it's ur bdae tomors.
happy bdae to you sw.
you have officially gone
one year further away frm me. :)
i prode at untold truths in my head
searching for the words i dread.
inexplicable drop of dew falls
formed from my eye.
it paints the walls.
in painfully forced vibrant colours.
i turn once more
under my pillow case i lay,
delicately smothered of life.
aieergk.
i like u as much even more than how i hate myself.
i hate myself. A LOTTTTT. ha.
you caused a major writer's block.
hehs, hope ur happy.
.:
speak only in snow,
only in the
dovewhite simplicities
of
quieted truths.
))
[[ lols. dis is so interesting. i can feel again. thanks to you. meows. yet still i ponder whetha if it's a good thing, aftaall. ]]
it was just yesterday you gave me my life
and then.
only you can take it back again.
i wonder when..
no more anesthetic to the pain.
, 6:02 PM
it's pretty typical how all this crappy love stuff's corroding my entries..
but it's... it cannot be helped alright? at least.. i dknow wat to do but to put it all here.
it's pretty personal to me.
and i wud appreciate it if u will not read any of this if wot ur gna do is to bitch bout how
my entries are all the same.. yeah..
i dun want ppl to leave me alone.. but it's obvious that i have to get over this myself..
it's sumthng that no one can ever help me with.. yeah?
[ wat time are you sleeping? ]
whenever... 1 plus? u..?
[ anytime... i wanna chat with you. ]
lols. yeah? pls dun let me bore you to sleep.
[ ha... no la. when did you bore anyone? ] _ i think it's supp to be.. 'since when......... '
hurs. thats what u know. with my boring words coupled with my boring personality, which is a pretty powerful duo, i can bore anyone anywhere.
[ no la... lame.. what happened to wei ting? ]
narw.. not sure. i think he wasnt in the best of moods in the first place.
[ ok... you tired le ma? if not, talk to me pls. ]
not yet. talk bout..?
[ anything under the moon. ha... ]
talk talk. talk talkk talk talk. just now was pretty fun, i guess. din talk much to cally tho, she sat too far away.
[ ha.... lame... ya you hanging too much with yong zhi and gwen la.. ]
lols. no la.
i forgot the rest.
just a couple of smses more...
and my phone stopped vibrating.
it was pretty sad actually.
i understand it's less than love i get from you
i do know it's more than love im giving.
it's clear how exposing it is to let everyone know how deep im falling.
3 months is such a long long time. if i was over u, i wudnt hv replied.
if i was stronger.
anyways, last nyt was fun.
brief summary yeah.
_reached tanah mer. mrt station at 7.36pm.
_met yz.
_fooled arnd wif digi cam.
_a teacher frm my tuition centre 2yrs ago (frm p2-p6) walked past. he's called mr andy. was our relief teach for a few times.
_he recognized me! shocking. considerin e fact dat i was dressed weirdly.
DO NOT ever attempt to hide ur identity by dressing in black aprons, white tops, gray pants under apron, and too-high fornarinas. u WILL fail like me. hahaha.
_gwyn arrived 25 min later.
_met gwyn. went up train.
_in train, we saw an albino. too cool. really.. no discrimination watsoever. silverish white hair. shocking pale skin. shades. sooooo japanese goth-like. w/o e black eyeshadow.
_we were crazy over em afta readin da vinci code. u know... Silas and stuff.
_he was munchin on a kinder bueno. den movin on to another kinder bueno.
_we took a picture of him cosh we wanted to keep...as remembrance.
_considerin that it wud be rude to poke a camera up his nose, i took his pic thru reflection on mrt windows.
_as a result, he turned out small and blurry. eeeks.
we reached kallang b4 7.45. shockkking.
(we were supp to reach at 7)
met. calanthea, wei theng, wee ho, su wei, and janice.
took mrt to marina bay.
quite ulu. dark dark one. but got quite a few ppl.
den got few uncles keep pesterin us to go their forgot-wats-e-name restaurant n eat.
we waited for jacinda.
we went.
(psst. sum skin from my right ankle was rubbed off brutally by my too-high fornarinas. ouchhh. den wore yongzhi's gb sock over my short socks. lmaooo.)
fornarina still rocks though..........................
ya. we went there....
crapped lots.
cosh we eat too much crabsticks. LOLS weeeeeeeeeee ho was soooooooo friggin funny.
argh.cudnt help laughin my innards out.
for example: listen listen!!! i tell you 3 jokes ah. one long joke and 2 short jokes.joooooooooooooooooooooooooooke joke joke.
LMAO IT'S SO RETARDEDLY FUNNY. he's our very own stand-up comedian.
if u get anyone else to say that, maybe a few strained chuckles.
but the way he said it.... lols.
he IS good.
GUFFAWS TO GO ARND!! wheeeee. *clap claps.
the food was alright la. the prawns were alive. den su wei had to butter em.
then sooo many ppl got kicks watchin the prawns move slightly on the hot plate.
sizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzle sizzzzzzzzle.
EVAAAAL!!!!
blog bout e rest later.
[[updated]]
the 'champion' juice was cool. lols i took pictures.
fine fine. it was 'champagne'.. and the uncle who kept pronouncin that wrongly really caught me--- i really thought it was a brand or sumthng. champion. sooo ego. haah.
mmms. the bus was pretty hard to catch. the first and second one were crammed. full to the brim.
wei theng got kinda sad.
yeahh... and we rushed. caught the last train in time.
shared ghost stories in mrt train.
one by one they all left.
till it was tampines.
left su wei, janice and i.
ya. my dad was alrdy der liaoos.
hardly said bye.
kept walkin &walking &&&walking.
sorry. dumb move executed. i turned b4 i reached the car, i just cudnt help but sneak one last look.
they were lookin at me..
they said their 'bye' and i waved mine.
i ran into car.
aikkss.
then.... you can refer to the top of the entry to know wot happened nxt..
yayyy. i got a new idea for another photo shoot. keep the enthusiasm going.. i just desperately NEED models. i cantttt film myself, alright. eeks i will just spoil things.
i think he'd be an expressive model though. ;)))
not mine la. just A model. hehhs.
aiya. i think im moving on.. just a little. he made me happier, weirdly, though he did nothing to improve the situation.
Friday, August 27, 2004, 10:23 PM
today... was basically a horrible day.
besides the CCA part. :)
our kind seniors planned this 'ndp performance celebration' for us dance membies.
yayyyyyyers.
YAYY YAYY YAYYYY.
so nice of them ehhh. :)
we had pizza to eat (tons n tons), junk food... watever.
whee. nice.
den we played silly games, like Dog &Bone... Ice &Water EDITED etc... hahahaha.
we had phototakin sess too~
whooooooots.
dance rocks.
yikes..........
i decided to come up with another short piece.
bear with me..
this time, i quite liked it.
nothing much bout love... more of...
endings.
what's gonna happen in the end? literally..... the very very very end?
when nothing's gna continue after that.
things might not matter as much
in the end
no more kisses, love and such
all gone with the fast-fading trends
pointless to look forward to
a dark, desolate future
the fact still rings true :
endless miles left to travel
no one betters without having failed
IN THE END......
no one might live to tell the tale
how many days left to weather
how many poems yet to pen
no doubt it wouldnt matter
how much longer , to reach the end?
(btw i like the last 2 paragraphs.)
i know many who just drop by sites and pick up sum lines they thot r nice.
irks me that no credit was given at all.
it just appeared to me how convenient it is to lift someone's work and claim them as yours.
it happens all the time.. no?
no credit is to be given actually... if one day u happen to come across sumthg, even the stuff i write. or the pictures i post in the future. and like it...
you can just tell ppl that it came from this girl's blog.
just 'this girl'. hahaha.
ahhh. i hate the stuff i just said. forget it la.
BUT im not takin those offensive rubbish off my entry, you can just read em and hate me... hehhs.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004, 10:24 PM
i cried during dnt....... yikes.. i know :due to the extreme pain caused by the ever frightful braces.
the pain is just.. simply unbearable lorrs. nothing you can just grit your teeth &get over with.... **note pun. grittin you teeth will DEFINITELY make it worse. i passed my dnt test by..... 1/2 mark.
i got 73 for chinese testt.... -AHHHHHH!! UNEXPECTED. this comin frm e grl who scored a 50 on.the.dot for e prev test. this proves how studying for 2days will earn u more marks than studying for 1day.
i got 82 for geog CA....... -AHHHH.. UNEXPECTED AS WELL. this comin frm e grl who failed geog THROUGHOUT last yearrr... mmmms...
sweet. if it werent for my 50-mark first chinese test that can drag me down to hell. arghhh. an A2!!!!
fwuahhs.
my geog &chinese haf definitely improved. but my dnt&maths............................................................................
nothing.to.say-able.
plus todayy....
my teeth felt like it's being pulled out slowly...
that nagging tormenting throb...
den my mom din cook. so we went kfc.
den... i ate the shrooms burger.
damn SPASSSS lorrs.
definitely.
i had to.....
cut the burger into tiny pieces with a plastic knife
(provided by the kind staff of KFC)
and nibble tentativlely at the... small enough pieces of burger.
lols. anyone who saw me wince throughout the process, or just noticed the plastic knife i was clutching,
would have thought i was crazy.
awwwww.
darn painful, i wanna take it offffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.
signing off
____THE metal mouth THING.
_______braces sucks. SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SOOOOOOOOO BAAAAAAD.
_________i slept frm.... 6plus to 8plus. durin sleep i feel no pain.
_______wheee. you know wat this means.
_____off to sleep yeahhs... :))))))
Monday, August 23, 2004, 8:24 PM
You think you know
but your views, overthrown
Yet
I
yes.. I..
I should have known
accustomed to your monotone
estranged, disrupted
our halt, far too abrupt
wafting tinge of sandelwood
you thought things
will follow suit
you thought wrong.
yet...
i should have known.
Friday, August 20, 2004, 11:25 PM
how tormented he feels.
it's not like u dknow.
you care. (i hope)
but you act in a manner
that
makes him believe dat u dun give a shit bout him.
ur leavin him hanging der
held up so high....
by such a breakable thread.
you were, all the things he thought he knew,
and he thought yall cud be.
dun tell me how it is always ur fault, and we wun understand, becosh it's not our business anyway.
the friggin key lies in ur hands, not like ur stupid to not know (ahhhh, pls la, dun tell me ur stupid waat tralalalaa all those groundless shit)
dun want him to hurt any longer.
dun want you to hurt any longer.
my <3>
it's already in pieces for my case already.
aint wantin it to become smithereens.
dun ask me wat you can do. cosh i dknow.
there must be something.
try......................................................................????
cain do no nothing bout any anger incurred.
it's too bad, it's all for yall anyways.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004, 9:56 PM
my dnt is in a horrible state ---------horribly uncompleted.
hmmms.... guess what we have for chinese... i studied ke wen yest............. which lightens quite a bit of my load actually. the first tym for chinese when i'av studied more than one day b4 the test.
2 days. whoo hooo. makes a wurl of a difference, i can say.
arnd 20 more cheng yus to go!! wheee~ fun fun fun :)
*missing 10 cheng yus have been.. learnt.
and might be forgotten.
awwww stop rainin on my non-existent parade kka.
actually nothin much happened today, but there seemed to be much bloggable stuffies.
but blogger (literally the one who blogs) doesnt feel like bloggin.
rather, she HAS to spend time on learnin her failing chinese (i just CANT believe how i'av been NEARLY failing chinese nowadays. ahhhh fcuk it. tell me that 3 years ago and i wud have mocked ya. ;] )
note: not that my chinese prowess (lols i find prowess so kua zhang sounding) was THAT impressive, but not failing then was an understatement!!
fwahhhs.
back atcha, chinese.
~btw, it's zhi lin's bdae today... happy bdae, and be happy :)
hmmmms i think it's a must, if not why happy birthdays, and not sad birthdays, angry birthdays, or JUST birthdays.
AHHH BACK ATCHA CHINESE!!!!
*zooooooooooooooms.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004, 7:44 AM
i think im coming down with sumthng.
i can feel a fever.
flu for the past few days.
generally, ppl use the word 'sick'.
yes i think im sick again.
growls it sucks.
got maths test tomorsh.
chi test on thrus.
dnt must be completed by tomorsh.
i wonder how ppl manage to search for info. i mean, i'av been searchin more than 20 times.
again n again.
20 different search titles.
40 diff websites at least.
no decent-looking/GOOD website which i need,
if not i cannot do dnt at ALL.
LALA the ppl who thinks fuggin dnt is my fault.
nonsense, websites r just gettin stupid.
LALA you for not understanding me.
wot gibberish am i typing.. i think im just tired.
wanted to sleep at 8.
haish. nighteh.
fuck u.
fuck everyone.
and YOU, r just included in the everyone.
yes you.
dont hold grudges much, do you?
fuck the world.
you'll feel like fucking the world if u feel like fucking the world.
i hold my stand.
fuck the world.
Saturday, August 14, 2004, 10:52 PM
wells.................
i snapped a few shots today...
afta croppin &adjustin the lighting,
there's only one piece that turned out ok.
hahaha. wt was high just now....wheee~
*swings
moods
i would if i could
pick up a camera
sneak up behind you
and click ever so softly
i've always liked your back view
wasnt it alli ever saw?
now..
i silently slip away
slip away
slip away.....
i hope you see me
slip away...
the taste of your own poison.
but then again..
since when do you turn backto look at the rambles
left behind
nope.. you'd never
you wudnt bother.
she crouched down, touching the ground with the tip of her forefinger tentatively. taken aback, the bright red stain remained as obvious as ever, a tiny pool of rich scarlet standing out against the frigid white snow, taking the shape of a heart. taking ragged breaths, she stood up, wavering slightly as she continued to make her way down the long icy path.which seemed never ending.she blew out only cool air, unable to help her fingers from freezing in the cold. the gusts of wind blew stronger, every step she took required more energy. convulsive shudders racked through her lanky frame, lalalalallalalaaaaaaa.
no link btwn the sentences. i give myself 2/10.
argggggh.
forget it.
anyone who is expressive ish kind enough to be my model??
hahaahahaha.
im tired of takin self portraits &see my ugly face turn out uglier in the pictures.
(all it took was 2 shots at self portraits, and im ready to stop.)
whahaha.
pweddy purdy preddy priddey please..
u dun hafta be pretty or drop dead gorgeous, just expressive will do.
hahaha. pleasing to the eye of course.
i hate self portraits.
mirrors r enough alreadyyyyy.
before i had a cam, ideas wud
nt stop flowing in...
now.......
needless to continue harping on my sorrowful self.
if u still dun get me, ring me at..... ****1846 &i'll make sure i'd deliver a karate kick to the left side of your face.
___*piaks.
, 10:52 PM
wells.................
i snapped a few shots today...
afta croppin &adjustin the lighting,
there's only one piece that turned out ok.
hahaha. wt was high just now....wheee~
*swings
moods
i would if i could
pick up a camera
sneak up behind you
and click ever so softly
i've always liked your back view
wasnt it alli ever saw?
now..
i silently slip away
slip away
slip away.....
i hope you see me
slip away...
the taste of your own poison.
but then again..
since when do you turn backto look at the rambles
left behind
nope.. you'd never
you wudnt bother.
she crouched down, touching the ground with the tip of her forefinger tentatively. taken aback, the bright red stain remained as obvious as ever, a tiny pool of rich scarlet standing out against the frigid white snow, taking the shape of a heart. taking ragged breaths, she stood up, wavering slightly as she continued to make her way down the long icy path.which seemed never ending.she blew out only cool air, unable to help her fingers from freezing in the cold. the gusts of wind blew stronger, every step she took required more energy. convulsive shudders racked through her lanky frame, lalalalallalalaaaaaaa.
no link btwn the sentences. i give myself 2/10.
argggggh.
forget it.
anyone who is expressive ish kind enough to be my model??
hahaahahaha.
im tired of takin self portraits &see my ugly face turn out uglier in the pictures.
(all it took was 2 shots at self portraits, and im ready to stop.)
whahaha.
pweddy purdy preddy priddey please..
u dun hafta be pretty or drop dead gorgeous, just expressive will do.
hahaha. pleasing to the eye of course.
i hate self portraits.
mirrors r enough alreadyyyyy.
before i had a cam, ideas wud
nt stop flowing in...
now.......
needless to continue harping on my sorrowful self.
if u still dun get me, ring me at..... ****1846 &i'll make sure i'd deliver a karate kick to the left side of your face.
___*piaks.
Friday, August 13, 2004, 11:01 PM
aybI AM A THING. please SHOOT ME DOWN. CAST ME OUT please please. DO NOT LISTEN TO ME. no, please.
it's late, d&t test tomorsh. same ol' same ol' stuffie. anything but maths or d&t.
AWWW SHUDDUP ALREADY YI TING.
yes i do mean it,and i dun see why i cannot shut up, but the need to speak is simply overpowering.
she gazes out of the window,
she finds the shutters closed
the waves of sorrow
posed.
shut up shut up SHUT UP.
i cannot see a thing
a ray, hope, faith
riveting
utterly caved.
nothing seems to be what it was
maybe it never was.
my fingers crossed.
i want to chop off my fingers.
i shall not entertain ppl with such crap anymore.
i want me to leave myself alone.
it's so torturin, really.
good night.
the desire to pull my hair out
and strangle you.
i want to see you.
i swear i will not do anything to you.
i just need to see you.
i swear.
i need to see you.
please.
*TODAYS BLACK FRIDAY. can i blame black friday for feelin like this? black friday used to be such a joyous event for me. ha. not now.... but i dun want black friday to pass.....
Wednesday, August 11, 2004, 8:14 PM
haha i think i must .. in one of the ways ppl like to put it... 'lax' a bit nowadays lerr.
i'av been an uptight and upset grl.
___ConSequenCes___
_i get disappointed easily
_ppl disappoint me easily
_i get distracted easily
_i forget things easily
_i die easily
_i get pissed easily
_i cannot do stuff properly.
guess guess. this few days haf been taken up by class-teachers-day-audition dance.
i did sum choreographin. the mask.. NONO... the CAP :)
*shows off.
tralalaaas. the genius who lives within me!!! which comes out once a million years!!!
&when gwyn came down to my hse last nyt, we choreographed 4-eights.
i admit they looked purdy good, but i think they sucked on our song.
our song is sooo ap. beat jump here n there. then sum parts not constant.
this time our audition sucked. baaadly.
but erhms. we'll try harder for the nxt comin... dance/event? we shall use some dance steps to see they match or not.
hee. this time was a last min thing again.
*shrugs nonchalantly, 2a style.
nonononoooooo cannot...
nxt tym we must start practisin like... 2wks b4 the audition. kka :))
im so tired. i felt lyk cryin in skl. i was tense and i felt like backin out.
but i didnt.
simple as that. no 'thank-yous' to anything which helped decided that or watever,
i just didnt back out.
but it was terrible.
everyone involved worked hard, it felt good, seein all of us try again &again togethaa.
i have absolutely no time to get all depresso &stuffie.
tomorsh is sci test day &i cant afford to fail anymoreeee.
so it's teeengs off to studee now.
that is the brother
the knocking just wudnt stop
why cant he bring the keys nxt tym
all i want to do is just lock myself up in the room
lumberin out.
tossed the keys at him.
jingle jingle.
i hear grumbling
i hurled lines of abuse
just for defence
i paused, wondering
'did i just do that?'
'well then. sorry.'
blamm. the door shuts behind me.
leavin him ourside, alone
im in here, alone
but
i'av just handed my freedom to someone else.
again.
note: not a poem. normal paragraph of short sentences, that's what.
studee.
pssst. lols nv thot i wud be doin this as well.
19days to ur bdae.
to think.... b4 that, it was 3mths to ur bdae.
not that it matters anyway (u stupid liarrrr, u know it matters hurhurrs. liaar)
i wud like to give time another speedin ticket.
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Maroon 5. She Will Be Loved. excellent.
Monday, August 09, 2004, 9:23 PM
now at my's hse.
no. not MY hse. is MY's hse.
lols. mei yee laaaaaa.
for dis dance. which isnt formin. YET.
not enough time.
not enough time for 'yet'.
no space for 'yet'.
now...
now now.
go go go.
Saturday, August 07, 2004, 10:52 PM
tell me you would be seeing me tomorrow
a drink with you to drown my sorrows
__but then...
i wish you would be
gone forever
the time you'd come back
would be
never.
what if i miss you
what wud i do if
my wish was fulfilled...
what if one day
the tears run dry
then i cud nv show anymore
how it is deep inside
what if one day
we run out of time
the pages keep flipping
will my last appearance
be in chapter Nine?
what if one day i was led astray
escaping from you
running away
escaping into this desperate realm of contrast
the void created by the lack of love.. lack of trust
even if i mattered to you,
i still feel the hurt all the same
our love gets all faded, unreal
soon it'll all get washed out by the rain.
__*how i wish you will love me till eternity
..... however long eternityy might be.
today's been a very free day. done no work, no nothing...
created only this....
&many testis at frenster afta a very very very long 4months.
Friday, August 06, 2004, 12:44 AM
dance RAWKED today!!
DANCE ROCKS . u might not agree.
tiring, time consuming, stress inducing, sharp remarks from stressed seniors when you dont perform up to standard...
but can YOU do THAT dance in one week?
including polishing (tho we werent polished to perfection), remembering the formations....
when the actual teachin of all the steps was done in only 3 days?
im a lousy dancer. im not up to a certain standard which i think is good enough... but i'll willing to put in the effort to dance better, with more power and strength just to show others that dance isnt all bout prancing about donned in nice glittery costumes with bombastic music from a blaring high tech radio..... nonono. our radio fail to work sometimes when we need it, and the seniors have to go arnd borrowing a decent one, one that can PLAY PROPERLY W/O JAMMING from other CCAs. which brings me to the subject bout how dance is always beinglooked down on. because? because we don't march around in the hot sun & do pumping, because all we do is dance and dance and dance again and again, sweating like hell inthe stuffy AIR-CON HALL with NO AIR-CON??! *we DO do pumping. &some other more excruciating exercises as well. aka the feet lift with someone sitting on ur shoulder, e exercise for your calves.
if badminton comes, we dont have a choice but move up a level higher. dis small limited space which is supp to be the dance room.
note the bitterness in my voice.
and when the dance isnt good enough, the bitch of a teacher starts saying
why so messy,
why so unstable,
why nv catch up fast enough,
why seniors nv teach properly??!
then you blame the seniors for not teaching us well enough.
1 week plus was all we had, we do not own supernatural dancing skills.
they had to choreographcome up with formations
polish our steps
rack their brains over what we have to wear
urge us on.... encourage us when we felt as if things wudnt be able to work out anyhow.
THE STUFF YOU DIDNT DO.
you just had to come on some of the practices, to montior us as you say.... but i simply cannot see why the lack of your presence willcause us to create chaos.
we are nice, disciplined, dancers, something which you DO NOT know. you should, i must say.
'ni men shi dance de lei, ni men shi dance de, ying gai... blah blahh'
YADAAR. pls, keep those insulting nonsense to yourself,
you have no right to demand anything from us, and discriminate us. even the teacher in charge is bious against dancers. waddahelll.
you keep saying, dance must do this, dance must do that. dance cannot do other stuff you know, dance are just supposed to frolick arnd and look nice.
the seniors rock.
we owe most of the success of dance to them.
& though i really like the sec4s 2004...... but i find myself growin fonder of the sec3s as well.both the sec3s n sec4s are totally two different kinds of people, yet the spirit can also be found in them. hehhs
NDP ROCKS.
i tied my hair soooo super high i look like i'av just stepped out of qing chao shi dai. seniors say one maaaa. then end up i think my ponytail the highest. no time for regrets. hehees.
we were supp to tie a few small braids in our ponytail,
valerie helped me.
i helped chu chu.
haha highlight of makeover session: i put blush before i put foundation. LOLS. darn spastic. den i put foundation so carefully, avoidin my cheeks. RED cheeks. fine, pink.
my lipstick clr was so friggin bright i looked like jiang shi.
the orange eyeshadow was still ok. it looked weird on everyone, includin me, but i like the clr orange so it wasnt THAT bad.
hehhs.then shi min sprayed this glue-like gel thing onto my head and ching hui sprinkled glitter.
VOILAAA. i ended up with a helmet as hair. *it was so friggin haaard.
chubbles looked so darn presentable in his white uniform. lols.
:D
we cudnt watch the march-in, we were practisin.
PDS rocked as usual.... duhhhh.
:)) so nice leiis.
girl guides.... wells. ok la, can i blame it on being darn distracted by the other g-guiders who screamed their heads off for those performing? veryyy united, at least. :)
the g-guiders seniors did quite a purdy job :)
i like the blue sparkly eye shadow of... tiffany? is that her name? forgot. lols ALL arnd her eyes &the sides. darn coo-el.
dance had to come out from the audience. the place me, chu chu &zhilin had to stand was directly blocking the views of some poor sec2 students who kept tsk-ing becosh we were stoppin them from watching like.... half of the PDS performance.
sad then, i think Malcolm did until veh veh veh veh veh nice. :))))
AHHH DANCE ROCKS LORRRS.
HAHAAHAH WE DIN MANAGE TO SCREW UPPPP.
MANY PPL SAID WE IMPROVED A LOT,COMPARING TO HOW WE DANCED DURING REHEARSALS. HAHAHA.
SO HAPPY.
WE DID IT MIEN.
ROCKKKS.
AHHHH. I LOVE DANCING.
NOW MY LEGS HURT SO BAD. -.0 *result of dancing the whole week afta skl.
afta all the performances, the council led everyone to the singing part. then the CCAs which performed filled the parade square with jumping, singing, and laughter.
running + jumping + singing + laughter = screeching.
hahahahah, but we all had FUNNNN!!!
i think it was my wish to have such fun since long time ago.
instead of sittin there &enjoyin the performance,
i'd rather be down there, jumpin arnd, cheering, laughing my head off...
whooo hoooo.
everyone who participated in the AHS NDP did an AWESOME JOB, gawsh all the wonderful people.
hahahaha.whoo hoooo.
whoo hooo.
YAY AHS ROCKS. :J
___AFTER LEAVING SKL___
we went to bedok ntuc to carry out our 'pasta day'. candy dot yini, sherwin hyphen, sharon furball come up with deee.
we bought ingredients for our pasta.
we went to sharon the furball's hse.
WOAHHH. lols sua gu meee. 3stories. veh purdyyy hurrs.
her ah ma was quite amusing, but dun understand why all of them kept laughin when she talked. lols if i were her i wud haf found it rude
but then, she din seem to mind.she like, love sharon a lot liddat. :D ohh switters.
WE COOKED!
nothing was burnt.
it turned out sooo nice.
but each of us cudnt eat much. pasta veh filling.
soon calanthea the ';' the rss girl arrived by herself.
some crazy guy told calanthea he din wna come cosh he said his face disfigured den he dun want me to see him
.den in the end he told cally he dun wna see me.
told me he din mean it as in the 'bad' way la.
pai seh wat.
haish. you give me some false hopes sumtyms.
aint nice of you to do that.
why cudnt u have just went and we'll say hi to each other.
and be normal friends.
why must hide. i dun eat su-weis.
i really want to be frens, if we cudnt settle for anything more.
but why? why do u mind whetha i see ur 'disfigured' face or not. (cally said it was just a teeny eeny weeeny face injury that she din notice at first)
why do u mind seeing me.
i can accept that u dun like me. but why u care so much bout this and that then?
see, im tryin to give myself FALSE hopes again.
i hate it.
. *been long since i used this.
den stop makin these suspicious-lookin actions. can.
haii.
it sorta put a damper on my high spirits.
sucks lor.
ok
___________den we played human tangler or sumthng liddat. lols. we succeeded at all 3 tries. :D
i decided to take out the rubberband which seemed to be surgically attached to my helmet hair.
_a series of yelping noises
LOLS. even with the rebberband off, my hair still looked like it's tied. the geeeeeelllllll.
i tried washin it off in the basin.
failing. TERRIBLY.t
hen gwynnefu came to the rescue!! with her superb hair washing skills
we even resorted to me lying on the ground of the nice clean toilet and her spraying the shower at my head to wash the soap out properly.. lols. basin's just too challenging.soon... my hair morphed into a tangly mass of hay.
t
hen.......................gwynnefu held up a comb and started tugging furiously at my hair. lols.
5 min later, it's back to normal!! (sumthng liddat)
yayyyys.
we trotted to sharon's room to let me change from my sopping wet NDP shirt and leotard into calanthea's darn v-neck top.
lols. den.
we trotted like nice lil pigs to sharon's parents' room to watch Home Alone2.
LOLS the boy sooo kawaii. i fell asleep for a while.and woke up just in time where the nice parts started.
punctual ol' me.
den we go home. we walked from eunos to kembangan. den cally went hm.
&i went tm to walk arnd, with nothing to do. den we decided to go arcade to play two rounds of the hockey thing.
due to gwynneth's skl attire, we had to take my sopping wet red shirtto dry at the toilet dry hand there for her to put on.
we dried for...... at least half an hour. lols.
______we played
-one round of hockey
-3 rounds of the find-the-missin-part-in-the-2-photos game
3 rounds of concentration. (find the identical pairs of cards)
- bought a drink at food court. -i trotted to bus interchange to take 293.
- gwyn trotted to her church to meet her sis.
then i trotted to this computer, where i'av just blogged sumthng SOOOOOOOOOOOOO long.
the longest i'av ever blogged, no?
hahaha. i hoped u enjoyed readin bout my day like how i'av enjoyed tellin ya bout it.
today's an amazingly great day.
(happy belated bdae to ivie cooldude. aw switeh be happy!!)
Thursday, August 05, 2004, 9:09 PM
Washing Machines Live Longer With Yi Ting.
*guffaws... this is just too much!!
I'd Walk a Mile for a Yi Ting.
-awww. switness.
Exceedingly Good Yi Ting.
*bats extremely SHORT eyelashes
Fill It To The Rim With Yi Ting.
The Yi Ting That Likes To Say Yes.
-nononoooo. since when hur hurrs. nooo. no.
The Yi Ting Of A New Generation
-a GREAT generation, it is. :)
Four out of Five Dentists Recommend Yi Ting.
-LOLS. lmaaooo. i rmbr hearin dis on a colgate commercial. eee. hahaha
Leave the Yi Ting to Us.
-hehhs. they will take me if u dun! *bwahhs.
Tell Them About The Yi Ting, Mummy.
-SHE'S THE GREATEST EVERRR! now spread the word, honey.
(im just having soooooooooo much fun wif this. teehees.)
Nobody Better Lay a Finger on my Yi Ting.
*screams. SOOO MANNN. LOLS. who, c'mon own up, who said that??! i'll love u foreveeer.
Yi Ting Really Satisfies.
*sceptical. errhms. glad u think so. haha
Today's Yi Ting, Since 1903.
-ooh. that's old...
It Needn't Be Hell With Yi Ting.
-it NEED not. it MIGHT BE.
When You've Got Yi Ting, Flaunt It.
*lmao. dis is so friggin ego I LOVE IT. :D
The Sweet You Can't Eat Without Yi Ting.
-hurrs. does that mean i'm supp to help u take off the sweet wrapper?
Ho Ho Ho, Green Yi Ting.
-LOLS another funny one that makes no sense.
Nothing Acts Faster Than Yi Ting.
-- if only this statement knows that it is being contradicting being put next to me.
Loves the Yi Ting You Hate.
--as if anyone loves the yi ting everyone hates...
The Best Yi Ting A Man Can Get.
-- CONTINUATION... is NOT me. :Daka.: *rephrased, the best yi ting a man can get is NOT me. hehhs
I'd Like to Buy the World a Yi Ting.
*sniggers. (you will bring destruction to the wurrrrl!!) A-HEMS. greatest thing you can do to the wurl, dearrers.
It Does Exactly What It Says On The Yi Ting.
-____SHAKE WELL BEFORE USE____ EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE.
Aaahh, Yi Ting!
-LOLS omgggawsh. soooo cute..
You Too Can Have A Yi Ting Like Mine.
-all you need is YOUR IMAGINATIONNN.
I Scream, You Scream, We All Scream for Yi Ting.
-LOLS. i know dis oneeee. i scream, u scream we all scream for ice cream!!
Great Yi Ting. Great Times.
-haha. thanks.
Sometimes You Feel Like a Yi Ting, Sometimes You Don't.
-and the times you do, you wish you didnt. heh hehh hehhhs.
Strong And Beautiful, Just Like Yi Ting
*EHH, NOTE. IM NOT USING THIS CHANCE TO POR MYSELF KKAA.
Get the Door - It's Yi Ting.
*quick!! quick!! dun make yi ting wait, laala.
Have a Yi Ting and Smile.
--- must laugh and jump for joy like u'av just won the lottery.
Fall Into The Yi Ting.
Yi Ting, Take Me Away.
whoever you are, take me away too.
Designed for Yi Ting, Engineered to Last.
-Love, i hope.
the shopkeeper stepped aside like he was about to show them something grand, that was when the couple lay their eyes on the antique mirror, standing in the secluded corner of the shop. encased with different shades of bronze with swirls of silvergleaming at the sides, Rae ran her fingers gently over the strange engravings carved into the bronze above the mirror. she stepped out of the security that her husband's hold provided, and basked in the splendour of the mirror.unable to stop herself from staring at the intricate patterns that danced upon the dark sleek metal, she reached out tentatively to touch the part of the mirror splattered with what seemed like bloodstains. the smooth glass was cool to her touch.the handles looked like they had been dipped in gold, silently sparkling, teasing her to open the drawers and discover the secrets they hide.
lols. the last part was a part frm my compo test. i tried recalling that part to post, this attempt is the limit of my failing memory. aiee. posting it makes me feel insecure.
MY MOTHER FRIGGIN PISSES ME OFF. she called, screamed down the phone because i didnt call her when i reached home, and she's all like i-hate-it-when-you-dont-call-me-when-you-stay-back-late. then im all like i'av-already-told-you-lots-of-times-already-that-im-staying-back-this-whole-week-!!! THEN SHE START KP-ING ME BOUT BRINGIN MY CAMERA TO SKL. *EXCUSE ME, SINCE WHEN DID I NEED TO SEEK UR PERMISSION TO BRING MY STUFF TO MY SKL WHEN IT'S MY LIFE? .THEN WHEN I WAS SAYING: 'WHO NEEDED THE CAM SO URGENTLY THAT THEY NEEDED TO FIND IT WHEN IM NOT AT HOME?' SHE JUST DODGED MY QUESTION AND ATTACKED WITH MORE GROUNDLESS ACCUSATIONS. ME:' JUN TING WANTED TO TOY ARND WITH THE CAM RIGHT.' BINGO. I KNEW IT LORRRR. FKER OF A BROTHER. HE JUST TOYS ARND WITH IT AND ENJOYS SWITCHIN IT ON AND OFF. SHE ENDED OUR CONV WITH A FCKING TWIST. 'I'LL TELL PAPA THAT YOU BROUGHT THE CAMERA TO SKL W/O PERMISSION BECAUSE YOU DONT RESPECT US.' BEFORE I GOT TO SAY ANYTHING TO ADD TO MY DEFENCE, SHE HUNG UP THE FRIGGIN PHONE. ASS YOU LAAA.
MUTHA-FKER. SHE'S JUST FRIGGIN CHILDISH.
I DONT HATE HER. BUT IT'S CLOSE TO WHAT IM FEELING NOW. GRAWLS.
I HATE HER. NOW.
Wednesday, August 04, 2004, 10:44 PM
full dress rehearsal.
i swear, my legs were wobbly like jelly the last few times we danced.again and again, again and again. ARGKKK.
im going crazy.
Don't just book it, Yi Ting it.
(dont i sound like a credit card. *posh accent. NETS it.)
Two hours of Yi Ting in just two calories.
(feasible, no?)
Yi Ting wanted.
(you cannot catch mehhhs.)
Built Yi Ting tough.
(*executes sum complicated karate moves. suaveee.)
Only the crumbliest flakiest Yi Ting.
(flakyy.)
This is the age of the Yi Ting.
The better way to start the Yi Ting.
We bring Yi Ting to life.
(thank you so much.)
Can you tell Yi Ting from butter?
(i dknow. i cant tell butter frm myself!! ahh.)
The Incredible, Edible Yi Ting
(GOSH this just fits sooo well. haha awesome.)
Too orangey for Yi Ting.
(i love orange.)
Recommended by Dr. Yi Ting.
Why Can't Everything Orange Be Yi Ting?
(GOSH. THIS STUPID SLOGAN THING KNOWWWS.)
Yi Ting makes everything better.
(i take back my previous statement.)
You Need A Yi Ting.
(forlorn eyes. hehhs.)
If you really want to know, look in the Yi Ting.
(this makes sense, in a ... sad way.)
Gonna be a while? Grab a Yi Ting.
-free for grabs, anybody? ha.
Break me off a piece of that Yi Ting.
(i was just joking! Now now dear.. Will u just give that hand back?)
The good Yi Ting kids go for.
(i dun really get this. lols)
Ribbed for her Yi Ting.
(hurrrrs.)
P-P-P-Pick up a Yi Ting.
(what?)
Let the Yi Ting begin.
(she deserves a chance at it already, c'mon.)
Easy, Breezy, Beautiful Yi Ting.
(the site's not makin sense anymore. *sniggers)
Yi Ting keeps going and going.
(then leaving and leaving.)
They're Waffly Yi Ting.
(does this has anything to do with waffles? *hungry)
We bring the Good Yi Ting to life.
Let your Yi Ting do the walking.
Did Somebody say Yi TIng?
(yes?)
But I'd rather have a bowl of Yi Ting.
(im honoured, but did they leave you with simply no other choice?)
Do you, Uh, Yi Ting?
(oh i love this one. funny.. haha)
Lipsmackin' Thirstquenchin' Acetastin' Motivatin' Goodbuzzin' Cooltalkin' Highwalkin' Fastlivin' Evergivin' Coolfizzin' Yi Ting.
(LOLS. sexaaaay phrase. ;) )
Just Do Yi Ting.
(im just advertising for Nike actually, so ignore me)
Yi Ting, and on, and on...
(she goes on and on and on and on...)
Leggo my Yi Ting!
(aiee?)
Thank Yi Ting It's Friday.
(why do i have a feeling it's 'Thank God' instead? LMAO.)
The Curiously Strong Yi Ting.
(this makes me feel like crying. but i will not. im strong enough. :) )
The Queen of Yi Ting.
(Can i add in, 'Is Yi Ting herself'? hehs hehhs hehhhs.)
Where's The Yi Ting?
(Where is the Love... in yi ting. Where's the yi ting? in love. :) )
Yi Ting - It Does a Body Good.
(AAAAA body? one body? betta than NOOObody kka. heee.)
i shall stop here!
GEOG TEST TOMORSH AHHHH.
Tuesday, August 03, 2004, 10:15 PM
today is positively EVIL!!
dun ask me. i dknow why too. :))
lets first discuss bout chinese test.
i purdy much pia-ed today.
and last night.
wells. stupid.
if i din study at all, i wud have gotten ALL answers wrong. maybe this time i will get.. half of the test correct?
i dknow mien. I JUST WANT TO PASS. DESPERATELY.
aiee THE HORROR IF I CANT PASS.
i hope i can pass i hope i can pass i hope i can pass.
then today rehearsal for NDP is simply rotten to the core.
CHUBBLES. LOLS SO CUTE NAME HORS.
finally chu chu they all have successfully created a nice and cute nickname. LOLS
CHUBBLES. SUCH A CUTE NAME LORRS. reminds me of pokemons.
piiiikaaaachuuuuu!!
chaarrrr... booolllllllls!!!!
LOLS so nice. chubbles chubbles.
other than that, dance rehearsal was positively EVILLL.
we nv tried dancin in the parade sq b4 and almost everythng was changed.
directions, size of steps.. FWAHHHERS.
yuck. our performance was utterly yuck im disgusted with myself also. den i keep askin gwyn whetha i look weird. LOLS.
insecure ol me.
gg dance was... so exhilirating.
haaarh. i shall not harp on it already.
im not anti-gg. in fact i find them ok.
hmmms.
geog test on thurs. i betta die now.
which means, sleep.
nighteh WORLD.
i soooo... dun love you.
but the world doesnt love me too.
soo. WE ARE QUITS, WORLD.
(i love you, world.)
Monday, August 02, 2004, 7:49 PM
it blew up in an instant
i couldnt see myself at that moment
insanely.. happy. it might be over. :)
im supposed to mug my brains out for dis chinese test tomorrow, which i WILL.
this instant!!
bwahhhs.