OKAY HI,YOU,DRINK THIS ALL IN.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
THE WRITTEN WORD
Saturday, October 29, 2005, 7:36 PM
forgot to say thankyou to my girlfs for ystrdy at mac<3
cals too though she joined us slightly later
dont knw wht had gotten into me;urhhm kay
hehs so the story's -points at whts under
for yall
thts so unlike me to be dedicating rambling
lyk, thanks, but no thanks
HAHAH
oh yes, &for my mom who read &cried
YES LOLS she claimed tht twas sad
but i told her she's plain emotional
im in the mood for blogging!
more than TEN RANDOM FACTS BOUT MYSELF.
___i'm a born procrastinator, i just did, AGN.
in e prev entry i said to start chinese, but i didnt. nvm later.
_more than 7ppl complain tht i dont laugh,
even at outrageously funny parts in a movie. i just smile to myself.
______i am a gigglish girl when i feel high.
__removal of my contact lenses scare the hell out of me
cus i believe tht somehow, i'll end up mixin the LEFT & RIGHT.
___i love writing & photography.
__i suck at literature. {yes, being able to write doesnt equate to scorin in lit
____jealousy &nega self esteem combined is my worst enemy.
_i dont find my eeyore hp accessory cute. {more than 4ppl
hve commented tht it's adorable
_________i hvn been reading for more than two mths.
___i wait for people to approach me (msn, sms, school) , not the other way round
{only in rare cases will i do the approaching
_i have two blacksbands, ¬ three cus one is with gwun
____in the past,i fall in love easily &i fall out of love easily too.
____urhhms the opposite of the above for now.
_i live &die when people praise me
___i need new clothes pronto.
_i forget my dancesteps real easily -snaps fingers
______i can't snap my fingers.
, 6:47 PM
i didn't like the ending i wrote
so i rewrote it,
into something..more of my..style. hehs.
happy ending?what happy ending.
the top part of this can still be found in the book,
but the following-edited.
...............................the water felt warm & familiar around her.
Lia's fair tresses fanned out into a halo above her
head. She had her eyes tightly shut, feeling air escaping her
in tiny bubbles gently. As everything began to grow dark,
&the rhythmic lapping of
the water lulled her into unconsciousness..
"My sister is the best swimmer in the world."
She blinked, her eyes momentarily stung by the chlorinated waters.
Squinting to see past the hazy & dark waters, could it be.. no it cannot be.
Facing her was a figure almost like Ernest himself, suspended in the water below her.
Tears gathered in her eyes, were they tears or were they water?
it made no difference, they blurred her vision all the same.
Under the intensity of Ernest's unblinking gaze, Lia could hardly
think straight.Six months, the span of six months changed her brother
from an angel
who used to be like happiness reincarnated, to a boy with
loneliness etched plain on his face.
'If this is a dream,'
Lia thought, realization dawning upon her 'then this would be the last dream
I'll ever have.' Her fingers closed around Ernest's grey, cold hand in
a soothing grip, &his facial features softened, the hold of
his sister's hand painting the ghost of a smile on his pale lips.
here it is,
Ernest's loneliness, Lia's pain & guilt,
her life,
this story
coming to their faltering ends as she allowed him
to lead her gently,
further
&further away from the surface.
-
here it is. personally i love this one more
thought of most of these when i was bathing lmao
cus having dreams as a theme,
this one ends as a 'dream' too,
right before her death. more apt.
how bout yall, the original one,
or this?
ENOUGH PROCRASTINATING
mugging for express chinese will start now.
Friday, October 28, 2005, 10:21 PM
tday has been a really weird day.
-
impatience creeps up &down our backs,
gives us sharp raps on the shoulders
causing a scare
then, screams &many other scares.
with every wheeze &grind
it moves inches
with every inch of skin it covers
it exudes curling strands of black smoke &soot
don't place your face so near, my dear
you kissed tentatively at the swirls of black &took a puff
i swear i was wrong, but i swear
i saw your lungs ignite
they come &go but only ill stay
only i'm willing to be left behind, my dear
from the corner of my eye i thought i saw you creeping
like impatience itself.
&we exchanged seats ;
i thought i caught a glimpse of
a smile so unctuous it seemed to be slipping upwards
towards your eyes
i must be seeing things.
my stolen glances are paced, brief, and evasive.
Monday, October 24, 2005, 1:03 PM
HALLOWEEN PICTURES
weell my models'd only work for me when
the chio levels are
over
tht leaves me with..zero days?!
}eyes gwuns
GWUNSAVAILABLE. she's exam free
hmmmmmmm
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Saturday, October 22, 2005, 1:05 AM
tday has been a weird day.
i'av witnessed my first secfour graduation
ceremony, despite some inevitable corniness
}it evoked something from
within but as usual i just can't put my finger
on it.....this unexpected sense of loss whilst feeling quite
detached from the whole situation;
i don't know many of em, but as each of
em stepped onto e stage, it's like
'heey..ohh!forgot bout her, so she's leaving too.'
'right, he's going off as well..'
.....along with so many others'
theyre all going to different schools &on a particular friday at about 12.15am
their lidded eyes ll rest
eyelids caked with the makeup which..heightens one's level of maturity i..guess
;as in their minds, they look back simultaneously,
wondering if thisthat indeed happened
questioning their thoughts &feelings which they had THEN
torrents of emotion theyre not experiencing anymore currently in the present{weell i mean future
ohh..kay then aftwards yzgwun&i went to longjohns. cals headed back cus
she wanted to study for chiolevels. LOLS. chio levels
SHEEESH im blaming..THAT on e lack of slp.
corny.
chinese..which reminds me i should start studying on
monday
since im gna be busy the whole of tmmrs &sunday..
BTWW IMPORTANT
dance society ll be having this performance next year
not going into details but
you guessed it, it's not gna be free but cmonn,
we'll work hard to put on a good show ;promise
so be a darling &buy our tickets please thank you (helluuuu you dont see us dance tht often
it should be quite fun. go aheaad, you know you want it HAHAHH)
..IF THE SHOW IS STILL ON
we can/should never be sure sometimes, the way teachers are changing their minds.tsk.
we're gna be busy dancers nxt year.
orienttn. tampinesmall. danceworks. performance-ticket.etc
hate being idle (oh reeally) but being
thaat busy scares me slightly lmao.
back to longjohns, it was freezing
in thr they should jack the temperatures a little bit, at least
then wandered around tm for a while
LOLS.urhhms the above two paragraphs no link right.
sorry i thought e entry was soundin a lil too heavy for your taste.
....URHH whoever you are
hehs..
yaa then they came over to my hse to catch some horrorflicks.
cursed kept JAMMING dammit
twas actually the ONLY decent one!
screamy.lols
the maid's ending wasnt half bad, but the start &the parts in btwn were bull.
herbie. GAHH herbie's adorable.
the whole my-car-can-skid-on-walls thaang was over the top
but e show got me all
hyped up bout driving
im gonna be a helluva driver when im a driver.
got to wake up like SUPER EARLY tomorrow
10?
aunt's gettin married!exciting ehh
it's been so long
since ive witnessed a wedding within e family
wondering if she's gettin the
pre-aisle jitters
thrfore i'm going off to bed now
ssit really inauspicious to be wearing black tmmrs.;-eyebrows.
vye vant to vake vhotos.halloween is coming.
we are images flickering with static
;tweaked grey on the screens of our 1960 tv sets
we were committed....to be wrenched apart
like our hearts, wrench your eyelids apart
&eyeball that heartwrenching voice
humming the stories of truths becoming the ringing of
many gunshots in a short span of time
we will be builded climaxes ;short bursts of emotions
for the weak-hearted
good morning.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005, 8:21 PM
yz sometimes when
you have rambling trains of thoughts
concerning us
choo choo-ting away inside
i believe it'd be better for ya
&us too if
thoughts like such are out in the
open next time.............
won't feel so alone.-huggheys
strangely ive got 'im not okay' inside my head
that single line, repeating again &again
quite amusing, e 'singer' just sounds more
&more in pain
more out of breath
each time
Thursday, October 13, 2005, 9:18 PM
woaah now that was some hiatus, ehh;D
one more to go!
weird enough, but i don't give a toss about chinese..
kay i never did but it's an exam.
EXAAM.
e-x-a-m
ohks doks i'm scaring myself
better spend at least an hour studying like, 500chinese words.
not to mention idioms!><
i'll never make it.
like powdered sand in water
a mass of blur
they bleed on our knees.....
just like us ;
as wrong as us.
i can never get enough of writing
Saturday, October 01, 2005, 3:59 PM
i deserve to be happy.
we all deserve to be happy people.
boldened words treading on thinning
lines.
when people hear your whispers
they pretend they don't
what's more, they pretend they don't know
when they are actually aware
that you already know it's a pretense when they say they don't hear you
;D
i AM happier these days. {&worried bout EOYS lols we all are.
gahh all this worrying would be uncalled for
IF I STUDIED.
kills myself.
HAPPYCHILDREN'SDAY <33
i was awake when september ended!
poff.