!HELLO SAAAAY.

THE WRITTEN WORD

Monday, November 29, 2004, 8:05 PM

you try to bleed
but it's too dry inside
it's time we tried to tie up these ends
and i'll miss you
((we could have still been friends(?)
past tense
past tense
past tense
but i'll still miss you

and i really wantED you to be the one
beside me, all cuddly with a face
stuffed full of popcorn
and you'll ask me if im cold,
through dense eyelashes
before you start shovelling more from the box
with your bunched up fingers

ha. i seriously wanted to laugh. you just looked... plain hungry.

but then you left.
you smeared oil over the left side of my face
with awkward fingers
freezing sticks of ice
maybe you asked me whether if im cold
because you were cold?
and i wonder why i didnt scream for a facial cleanser
but then you left.

and i didnt stop you
purely because i couldnt
you wanted to go
to leave the memory banks
of my mind
swamped with itty grisly details
i cant really remember

the below is not about him. dont ask me who's it abt. i dknow, really. ;\
u'll see me on the other side
you'll see me on the other side
when i have no fight in me
no more. when the stars start
falling in our milky bowls
of honey stars cereal
will
you meet me on the other side.
where every breath exhaled
brings cotten candy
on sticks to me.
to me.
wisps and wisps of pinkish sweetness
and our memories will be tangled
in.
then devoured
then..we'll have nothing left.
nothing at all.
(you can have the cone-like sticks ((stick-like CONES???? wth. aha.))
striped with red and white
but no more sticky sweetness will be found there.)

ezekiel's in my lap
playin with his mcdonalds toy
and he's watching me type
all these crap. senseless words
so...
it's not all
that bad yeah.
and im not hurting that much anymore, if you were wondering.