gongshang primary anglican high PAE victoria jc<3 turning seventeen in december

WHO AM I
but a specimen waiting to be dissected for the 9274428th time
you have seen through lies I've fabricated; the tears + gore,
& you didn't want to see me no more

I am a daughter, a friend, a bad student,
I am a girl, a reckless girl
Just like every other girl who wants to be beautiful.

Something sets me apart:- I have eyes that have seen too little of the world
&fingertips too raw to reach the beauty that is too far out to be near.




how can solitary streetlights be expected to stay awake
at night when everyone slumbers deep
expected to dim their shine for they can't beat
the sun. the preferred, brighter alternative.
at the break of dawn their eyelids are forcibly
shut tight
when the last shard of light dissipates; just when
I read your love letters the very last time
{don't I say that every day, but every day might be the end of our start
the next minute the very last,
& the moment after ;my gateway to endless trauma
my streetlight will shine for me
for my face shining with tears, for sopping wet
letters with running ink
for the harsh sweetness of unrequited love

One night as I smoothened the creases away from your letters
& waited to feel the glow
My streetlight is tall as it is bright
In your letter, page 59, you spoke of the lovers you'd always wanted to own
Never once did you mention my name, did your pen run out of ink? Every single time?





it's so hard to try being somebody else
;somebody I am not

ughh no matter how I try to change
I'm just no handbag-wielding sweetheart.
I'm no boy.
I am a lover -who needs her sleep.

calanthea
gwynneth
yongzhi
bzzzz
weitheng
melissa
joanne
kingston
weeho
wenjun
tingli
xin rong
jiemin


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