gongshang primary anglican high PAE victoria jc<3 turning seventeen in december

so i am a bitch/moodswinger who rants bout matters
which others'd prefer to not knw bout in here.seeing tht earth is a messed up place
full of messed up people......but.this.is.myspace?
look,go far far away if you cant stand me.
my high level of tolerance is indeed astonishing
,well i certainly can't stand myself,yet im still not suicidal.yet.
.can someone do me a favour &enlighten me please.
whatve i screwed up this time?didnt i try reduce the hurt,instead of
leaving like how i used to..
this time,ive given more than the previous failed
friendships,
muchmuch more.
just..let go the prev few times.
didnt really care much.cudnt afford to
but it turns out tht i WAS smart to not hve.caring almost
equates to handing someone a dagger.
..uhh.you might not see the link
but nvrmind.

but then again
..we were expecting this,weren't we.
youve successfully made me feel
like the lousiest person ever in the whole wide world,
AND thr seriously ARE some lousy peeps on earth.
somehow,im worse off.

it doesnt help yknw,i am already this insecure about being me
&when people dislike me,(or at least,when i feel tht they do)i am this close to falling apart
it's worsening....i can barely lift my head at times..in the classroom..
it does sound farfetched,&how i wish i can say tht it is..exaggerated.
in my view,theyre right,theyve their reasons
&theyre absolutely.correct.i deserve to be disliked.
can you see whr is this going?im gna crumble soon.

friends mean this much to me
i dont really open up to many people.which is quite apparent,really.
alright so im this HUUGE loser tht
no one wansta be friends with eyys.
whoopedeedoodah..pop em bottles,finally another
reason to celebrate!
ohhCOOL i can count the number of friends i hve
IN JUST ONE HAND!
hah,i somehow choose the wrong people to care for
MOST OF THE TIME.


a KEEPAWAY sign branded onto my left cheek,tht is exactly wht i need.







you knw.i AM overreacting.
since other ppl do not give a hoot about it,eyys
ill try to do the same
(black friday no more)

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