gongshang primary anglican high PAE victoria jc<3 turning seventeen in december

oh..yes,
not wanting to do anything to salvage things{actually i dont see it that way}
is because
any [WORD REMOVED] thing i do will just worsen things lah.
like every move.every word uttered.BLOGGING.


TESTED.AND.PROVEN.
lol.i just want stop this selfpity,
what have i done wrong,what did i not do.was i that hateful
how come,why, this crying{oh is this bring out nasty thoughts like 'ooh look now
she's seeking sympathy from others'} for nights wondering ,wondering.



wait a lil,what have you done wrong,what have you not done?

every frickn thing i do
will sort of displease you. lol
sometimes i wonder if somehow along the way,
you just developed this SOMETHING agnst me.
that sounds retarded when put into words,but somehow it's a question which
is pretty real.

calanthea is right,
i should learn to care less about it,
be less affected, when everyone has stopped caring already.
i should learn to dismiss your thoughts,actions,and slowly you{though i dont
really want to}, it's necessary to not be hurt by the thoughtlessness{such word?} of others.



ooh this is a frickn childish post lah.lol.
i just want to 'get it out' of my system.not like it's out now
but i still love cal gwyn and yongzhi
hm so i need to sleep and wake up feeling different about THIS
or
not think about this at all.
cus now it's like 'it's beyond redemption oh fuck,nevermind.
oh fuck,NEVERMIND!?'

lol.nights all

calanthea
gwynneth
yongzhi
bzzzz
weitheng
melissa
joanne
kingston
weeho
wenjun
tingli
xin rong
jiemin


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